Okay, let me start of with stating that I DO know that homicidal/suicidal thoughts are normal.. But how far can it go before it turns to insane?
Here is my worry: Lately and more offen still, I have been having sudden urges to go out to a overly crowded store and just slit the wrist of an innocent and watch the blood drip and run down their fingers.. I offen scare myself when this thought fritters into my mind. It just comes out of no where. Yes, mainly when I am depressed, and I do have history of self-mutilation. But this image and thought has scared me more than anything I've ever thought in this state. It makes me feel like I am losing my grip on sanity.
Is it a phase? Is it just me? Or is there something mentally wrong with me??