RANT ON ABOUT ANYTHING!!!!

Yes, you will submit to our wondrous ways! Submit damn you, SUBMIT!

"I am Akba-Atatdia"

Something that irritates me to the point of distraction is when people unquestioningly blame everything on ‘Global Warming’ these days.

Like when the weather brings floods to one part of the country while another has raging fires, and then some dimwit chimes in to blame ‘Global Warming’…

And it’s not as if they even try to understand something about what they are asserting to be an indisputable truth. They just wolfed down any shit the media served up for the day and then burp it up in your face as the occasion arises.

And
It
Drives
Me
Up
The
Wall…

When I pointed out how this was thinking like a sheep… this person (who is someone I actually care about) coyly replied “but I like sheep” (which is to say… leave me to be in my pasture) and I wanted to throw up in revulsion.

I cannot understand why people are happy to be lied to, why they prefer not to question anything, or why they would voluntarily choose to tow the line!!!!

I wish I had more gas money for this weekenddddddddd

"I'm a human being, God Dammit!! My life has value!!!"

It seems recently that I've been watching a ton of golf. A boring sport to some (self included) I've been watching these slow-mo shots of failed putts and drives on a course I don't know for the last couple days, and throughout all of that, no matter if the shot's a horrible windshield-cracker or a brilliant hole-in-one, the announcer's voice NEVER gets up above a whisper. They're probably in a booth a metric mile away (that's a couple kilometers plus some) where there's no one around but the team, watching the sport on a TV like mine, and they're whispering statistics and encouragement, and it sends me spinning. It's strangely infuriating.
Continually, as well as watching it, I've been making contacts in the business world, and have been invited to a couple golf games. So I read up on the form and procedure, hit the driving range and nearly re-break both my wrists (for the story on that, see the 'stupid things we've done as kids forums) without hitting that little white ball further than I could kick it. Continually, I'm a lefty, and all the good putters in the bargain bin are for right-handed folk. I try my best, I pick up my putters WITH my right hand, but I shoot lefty. So I'm stuck with basically a frozen hot dog on the end of a three foot stick to putt with, and that's got about as much decent aim as a blind sniper. I usually do pretty well in mini-golf and greens putting, but not with the piece of garbage I've been using. It's filthy.
Also, I carry my own bag. I could rent a carrier, or get behind the wheel of one of those golf-carts, but I carry it myself. So many bags have the backpack straps on them now (which are surprisingly comfortable) as well as those fold-out poles to support them, and I find they're not for decoration. But people always ask me while I'm out, "You carrying your bag?" How am I supposed to respond to that? "No, it's just grafted on my back? I'm trying to get the Quasimodo Discount on these ridiculous greens fees?" It's not a good idea to tick off a golfer, they can hit you with a three wood, five wood, three iron, seven iron, nine iron, sand wedge, pitching wedge, putter, and that little moist towel that's always on there to wipe the balls out on. Basically any golfer is carrying an arsenal of deadly weapons. THIS is the gentleman's game.

**Side Note: I can't laugh, my game's still at 86 for 18 holes. Yuck.**

""As I sit before the fire, I wonder how many before myself have been burned.'"

i just had the worst fucking day ever!first i get demoted from my squad leader position in ROTC for a bullshit reason and now i might not be able to see the girl that i like this weeked because i got a FUCKING C on my goddamn interum report! im so fucking pissed right now.my mom said that if i make up all the assignments i missed(there were only 8) that i might be able to see her.so i spend 4 fucking hours making up 8 goddamn homework assignments in a subject that i fucking HATE and then she tells me that i might still not be going! FUCK!

my grades
A: Good.keep it up
B:Should be an A
A:Good.keep it up
C:NOPE! FUCK YOU ASS HOLE!
its a fucking C!

hmm.i actually feel a little better now.still pissed,but at least steam aint shooting out of my ears anymore.lol.and i appologize for my extensive use of profanity

"Whatever doesn't kill you will.....well,it will hurt like hell, but it wont kill you."

I recently started college and have tried to stick to being straight edge, no drinking, no drugs, no sex... I made it though high school with an almost perfect record. I can go without all three of these things but what they promote i can't pass up. Everyday its harder an harder. I feel so alone. Friends from high school have stopped talking to me, they have abandoned me! I dated for at least two of the past three years, split between two relationships. I had someone to talk to then, I had someone to see, I had someone that I could hold and know that I was where I belonged...but now? Now that I'm single and in a new place, abandoned by all friends and alone because everyone else either goes home or parties on the weekend...what am I left to do? I'm left to sit in my room, wishing that I had someone, anyone! talking to people online or over the phone doesn't work...it just makes me feel worse. I had to have known that this would happen. How can you go through life thinking that someone will always be there for you? How can you seriously believe that there will always be someone to vent to? someone to talk to, someone to hug, someone to kiss, someone to fall asleep with? My grades are fair, i'm stayin in shape, and keepin busy for the most part, but when it gets to be night...i'm all alone. I feel like the moon, everyone can see it, all the stars reside around it and with it, but for all eternity it will never find another moon, it will always be alone. There will not be someone there to look after you always, there will never be a person who will always be there when you need them most. They tell you that they will always be there, but when you need them...do they answer their phone? Do they reply to your text? Do they answer your messages? If they miss your call do they call you back? I helped to save a friends life once, she was gonna kill herself. I caught up with and talked to her, I'm good with words, I'm good with people. She seemed to grateful and I always felt like she would be there forever if I ever needed her. She ignores me now, now that we've both left for college she doesn't answer any of my calls, she doesn't respond to texts, to doesn't answer e-mails. I have died to her, and now...i wonder if all my anguish was woth it. I am depressed. I am seriously clinically depressed, and the one person that I feel can do anything to help me, refuses to listen, refuses to acknowledge my exhistence. I'm so fucking alone, and thank God I've taught myself how to stay strong when I hit my low. Thank God I know how to hold on to what pathetic life I have when noone else will help me hold on. Thank God I can say that I trained myself to NEVER be like her! But damnit am I lonely.

"May wisdom flow through my mind, and love burn in my heart"

This is going to be long. Summary: I work for a non-profit organization and my boss is a cretin.

My boss is an effin retard. I don't call people retards, but I hate him as a boss. How in the world did someone think he had half the brains to be a boss? You know how? The person who hired him IS AN EFFIN RETARD TOO!

He plans a 300 person dinner with big name professionals and sends invites two weeks BEFORE! ARGH!!!!!!! He invites unimportant people to a limited capacity dinner, leaving so many important people out! That idiot! We have this dinner every year. When I ask him what's this year's theme is, he says, "Oh, it doesn't matter, we're just giving a dinner" You retard, what do you mean we're giving a dinner? He plans a dinner at the most $*%^ expensive restaurant with AMAZING speakers and DOES NOT CHARGE GUESTS. THAT STUPID IDIOT! HOW IS OUR ORGANIZATION GOING TO PAY THE $25,000 bill! WE'RE A NON-PROFIT ORGANIZATION DAMMIT!

Thanks to his administration, our website has not been updated for SIX MONTHS. And who is going around apologizing for all his stupid mistakes. ME! Me, the on-time, perfectly organized, sincere temp apologizing for the procrastinating, superficial image conscious, idiotic him. And we are a non-profit organization promoting peace and pluralism. Marvellous. He talks sweet in front of our clients, and stabs them in the back with harsh words about how he doesn�t care about them.

He's not in the office 70% of the time, and when clients ask about him (he is officially supposed to be in during certain times), all I do is just shake my head and cry for the good organization suffering at the hands of this lumbering fool. When he is around, my head is about to burst. He makes me rush into everything, gives me thirty million things to do, then wonders why things never get done. He wastes our organizations money by ordering from expensive suppliers, when he could just take some time to find something cheaper.

And ya know what he said last night? He smiled like the fool he was, and said, "You see this? My phone battery is on low. I've been calling people left and right. ANd I have not slept for the past two days trying to get the magazine ready." You IDIOT. You FOOL. You CRETIN. How in the world can you SMILE at your PATHETICNESS? Why in the world does that give you some thrill that you are missing sleep because you are unorganized? All because of YOU, I have to work overtime everyday!

My poor mother was sick, had ten guests over, and I asked to go home, and you said you needed me elsewhere (which u didnt), and that my mom can do without me. HOW DO YOU SLEEP AT NIGHT? I HAVE A FAMILY! I AM A MENTOR! One of my mentorees got sexually harassed, came to me the next day for help, and you DID NOT LET HER STAY! Unlike you, with a wife who tolerates you and (God knows how) finds something to love in you, I CAN'T tolerate your unbelievable degree of confounded stupidity. You broke the scale on stupidity. You almost outdo Bush. What do you do, sit down everyday and wonder how much more retarded this world can possible allow you to be before it collapses under your stupidity?

You are very sexist. When listing the names of guests who are friends, you write, Mr. Smith and wife. And wife? Hello, her name? �Oh, it�s not important. She�ll write her own name on her name tag when she comes.� You treat your clients like gods and your friends� wives like trash. It�s amazing you know my name. I hate men like you. FOR GOD SAKES, YOU CALL YOUR FRIENDS ANYWAY. ASK FOR THE GODDAMN WIFE�S NAME! SHE IS A HUMAN BEING, NOT AN ATTACHED ARM OF YOUR FRIEND, DAMMIT!

Why do I work with you? Why am I working with you when the last person in my place quit BECAUSE OF YOU! AND YOU DARE CALLING THE LAST PERSON HARD-HEADED AND STUBBORN IN FRONT OF ME, WHEN SHE IS MY NEIGHBOR AND FRIEND AND HER DAUGHTER SPENDS TIME WITH ME EVERY WEEKEND! DIE! OMG JUST DIE! FALL OFF THE CLIFF AND DIE! That woman did so much for our organization, more than you can ever do in a hundred lifetimes, and you don�t even RESPECT HER! She was underpaid, overworked, working in such ridiculous conditions, but she stayed because she was devoted to the mission of the organization, just like me. It is only that that keeps me in this job until I move in October. I don�t need the money. I said I would even work 40 hours a week for free if needed. And you know what, neither she nor I talk bad about you behind your back, not even to each other. She just tells me to follow up with you on everything and that�s it. The woman who deserves to hang you is keeping quiet because she does not want to talk bad about anyone. AND YOU DISRESPECT HER! OURIGHT WISH SHE WAS NEVER HERE TO BEGIN WITH! NOT ALLOW HER TO MAKE A TWO MINUTES SPEECH AT OUR MOST IMPORTANT EVENT OF THE YEAR. GO SHOOT YOURSELF!

EVERY SINGLE DAY, I pray for our organization OVER AND OVER AND OVER. I've never prayed this much in my life. I never prayed to God to remove you, I just prayed to God to cover up your mistakes. But now, I think I should start asking for your removal. I thought, maybe you might learn from your mistakes. BUT YOU DON�T. Quite opposite, YOU GO AROUND BEAMING THAT YOU DID A GREAT JOB! PLEASE JUST GO AND DIE! PLEEEEEEASE!

"How can we be just in a world without mercy and merciful in a world without justice?"

I used to think it was a bad thing. That stupid feeling i get when I feel like I want to be a "Hero" or a "Knight in Shining Armor." I don't think that its good, i just think its one of the many irrelivent things that humans feel. Irrelivent becuase they trully, in the end, do not matter and can utterly be let go of and nothing in your life will actually change. Think of how many things there are like that in this world. So many "problems" that are litteral figments of imagination. Maybe not imagination, but they arent exactly real if you catch my drift. I feel foolish or silly when I catch myself indulging in these "unimportants" but now I feel like its ok. If I take all those little things and hold them precious some how, then maybe I'll have a hobby that I can actually get something out of.

My version of romance doesn't involve candles.

"Wht cry for those that often cry? Instead, help them smile, and smile for those that smile."

Okay, its bloody freezing in london, its 8:42 and im disguisted with my lack of self discipline. i know i have three essays to do, i know i shouldnt be talking too much on the internet, i know i shouldnt be getting txtxs from certain individuals, i know i shouldnt be wandering if god exists or not, i shouldnt be doubting my 'beliefes'. BUT I AM SO SOD OFF. yep, imgoing college later again to be taken no notice of by somebody who fills the entire room around me. how can one person take up so much space. not literally people. but in my mind. i need to sort out some kinda time table its just that i waste my time cause im scared ill miss something, damn nothing ever happens. so from 2day inshallah, im going to talk to a smart friend of mine and sort out my time table. then im going to stop pretending im smart and actually do something with my life. and if i write on here in 20 years time saying ive turned into another failure who had the potential then just shoot me.

"I have nothing to be proud of today but hopefully tomorrow I will."

The following message will be one of the very few things I have typed in all caps within the past ten years because it is completely and totally batshit insane in my opinion.

HOLY FUCKING SHIT A LIVE ACTION DRAGONBALL MOVIE IS COMING TO THEATERS IN AUGUST OF THIS YEAR!

Even as I type this statement it still seems unreal. I completely abandoned any hope of a dragonball movie about two or three years ago... after going through my entire school career contemplating and speculating what a live action americanized version would be like.

For the love of God, please go see this movie. Twice or three times if you can. This one is based around the end of the Dragonball series, but I want to see the Z series, so this one must be a success in order for that to happen.

Holy shit I can't sleep now.

"I am Akba-Atatdia"

my car died yesterday and for good too. the pistons are fucked, the transmissions fucked, there's oil leaking everywhere. now i don't have a car. i paid 2300 for that car. now i don't know what to do. i have no money, because i don't have a babysitter for my daughter, so i don't have a job, and when i do get a job, i can only work late nights and hardly anything is open that late around here, because i have school during the day. i was trying to quit smoking, but now is not the best time. i don't have anything to eat and i'm starving.

"free country my ass."

After deliberating for the past half hour I have decided that girls that do porn are the most pathetic disgusting people on the planet. Thank God for people like my girlfriend who want to be loved and love in return. Who want to be happy and close to their friends and family.

"Wht cry for those that often cry? Instead, help them smile, and smile for those that smile."

I keep seeing commercials for sonic and they look so good, but there is only one Sonic in Michigan it is torture. They need to stop playing the commercials or build more Sonics in Michigan.

""Man is least himself when he talks in his own person. Give him a mask, and he will tell you the truth" -oscar wilde"

dearest cryptic, your not missing out too much man, its rather undesirable. although it is nice to have food.

"if life has no point whats the point in talking about it?"

well that is good to know and yes i will agree it is nice to have food.

""Man is least himself when he talks in his own person. Give him a mask, and he will tell you the truth" -oscar wilde"