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  40yrs • M •    
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				I notice that we post our own writing on here a lot, but I don't see much of other's writing.   We all have one poem we tend to live by, or one that means a certain thing to us, It could be lyrics to a song, it could be an epic, but it's something we see and remember every once in a while.   Here's mine- an old sailor's salt from Britain, from the book "A Voyage for Madmen" :    When you're lost in the wild, and scared as a child  and death looks you bang in the eye;  when you're sore as a boil and according to Hoyle  to cock your revolver and die.  But the code of a man says "Fight all you can"  and self-dissolution is barred;  hunger and woe, oh they're easy to blow-  it's the hell served for breakfast that's hard.    To me, when I went through a depressive stage a while ago, I noticed that whenever something bad happened in the morning, the rest of the day was overshadowed by my dark premonition. This poem, when I found it (for the second time) helped propel me out of that state and get to my current level of 'selective euphoria' (long story.)     So what's your piece? 
						
		
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""As I sit before the fire, I wonder how many before myself have been burned.'"  
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  35yrs • F •    
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				 This is song is utterly and completely ME. I relate to every part of it. Besides, like, having a spouse and children and stuff. And the fact that I'm female.    The Final Cut (Pink Floyd))    Through the fish-eyed lens of tear stained eyes  I can barely define the shape of this moment in time  And far from flying high in clear blue skies  I'm spiraling down to the hole in the ground where I hide.    If you negotiate the minefield in the drive  And beat the dogs and cheat the cold electronic eyes  And if you make it past the shotgun in the hall,  Dial the combination, open the priesthole  And if I'm in I'll tell you what's behind the wall.    There's a kid who had a big hallucination  Making love to girls in magazines.  He wonders if you're sleeping with your new found faith.  Could anybody love him  Or is it just a crazy dream?    And if I show you my dark side  Will you still hold me tonight?  And if I open my heart to you  And show you my weak side  What would you do?  Would you sell your story to Rolling Stone?  Would you take the children away  And leave me alone?  And smile in reassurance  As you whisper down the phone?  Would you send me packing?  Or would you take me home?    Thought I oughta bare my naked feelings,  Thought I oughta tear the curtain down.  I held the blade in trembling hands  Prepared to make it but just then the phone rang  I never had the nerve to make the final cut. 
						
		
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"For each time mankind progresses, man himself regresses."  
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  36yrs • F •    
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				 by: Emily Brontë (1818-1848)    oN a sunny brae alone I lay  One summer afternoon;  It was the marriage-time of May,  With her young lover, June.      From her mother's heart seemed loath to part  That queen of bridal charms,  But her father smiled on the fairest child  He ever held in his arms.      The trees did wave their plumy crests,  The glad birds carolled clear;  And I, of all the wedding guests,  Was only sullen there!      There was not one, but wished to shun  My aspect void of cheer;  The very gray rocks, looking on,  Asked, "What do you here?"      And I could utter no reply;  In sooth, I did not know  Why I had brought a clouded eye  To greet the general glow.      So, resting on a heathy bank,  I took my heart to me;  And we together sadly sank  Into a reverie.      We thought, "When winter comes again,  Where will these bright things be?  All vanished, like a vision vain,  An unreal mockery!      "The birds that now so blithely sing,  Through deserts, frozen dry,  Poor spectres of the perished spring,  In famished troops will fly.      "And why should we be glad at all?  The leaf is hardly green,  Before a token of its fall  Is on the surface seen!"      Now, whether it were really so,  I never could be sure;  But as in fit of peevish woe,  I stretched me on the moor,      A thousand thousand gleaming fires  Seemed kindling in the air;  A thousand thousand silvery lyres  Resounded far and near:      Methought, the very breath I breathed  Was full of sparks divine,  And all my heather-couch was wreathed  By that celestial shine!      And, while the wide earth echoing rung  To that strange minstrelsy  The little glittering spirits sung,  Or seemed to sing, to me:      "O mortal! mortal! let them die;  Let time and tears destroy,  That we may overflow the sky  With universal joy!      "Let grief distract the sufferer's breast,  And night obscure his way;  They hasten him to endless rest,  And everlasting day.      "To thee the world is like a tomb,  A desert's naked shore;  To us, in unimagined bloom,  It brightens more and more!      "And, could we lift the veil, and give  One brief glimpse to thine eye,  Thou wouldst rejoice for those that live,  BECAUSE they live to die."      The music ceased; the noonday dream,  Like dream of night, withdrew;  But Fancy, still, will sometimes deem  Her fond creation true.  
  
						
		
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"There is a thin line between bravery and stupidity"  
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  37yrs • F  
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				 Courage     It is in the small things we see it.  The child's first step,  as awesome as an earthquake.  The first time you rode a bike,  wallowing up the sidewalk.  The first spanking when your heart  went on a journey all alone.  When they called you crybaby  or poor or fatty or crazy  and made you into an alien,  you drank their acid  and concealed it.    Later,  if you faced the death of bombs and bullets  you did not do it with a banner,  you did it with only a hat to  comver your heart.  You did not fondle the weakness inside you  though it was there.  Your courage was a small coal  that you kept swallowing.  If your buddy saved you  and died himself in so doing,  then his courage was not courage,  it was love; love as simple as shaving soap.    Later,  if you have endured a great despair,  then you did it alone,  getting a transfusion from the fire,  picking the scabs off your heart,  then wringing it out like a sock.  Next, my kinsman, you powdered your sorrow,  you gave it a back rub  and then you covered it with a blanket  and after it had slept a while  it woke to the wings of the roses  and was transformed.    Later,  when you face old age and its natural conclusion  your courage will still be shown in the little ways,  each spring will be a sword you'll sharpen,  those you love will live in a fever of love,  and you'll bargain with the calendar  and at the last moment  when death opens the back door  you'll put on your carpet slippers  and stride out.    - Anne Sexton. 
						
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