Okay, normally, I would ignore this, but it's too good to let go.
1. You say that everywhere you look is pretence. Have you ever thought that these people might actually be like that? That it isn't some facade they use? They ARE shallow and petty and driftwood. Intellect doesn't come easilly to some. Nor does individuality.
2. What is it about society that you find not "real"? Is it the fact that people live their lives in society, or the fact that there is not complete anarchy? Chaos theory: evil exists, goodness itself is a chaotic creation. Why do we all prescribe to society? Because it is orderly and liveable.
3. Perhaps by living the live that society hands out to people, that IS living their life to the fullest. We live in a society with rules and boundaries, and our lives are set by these. The people who apparently don't live life to the fullest are those that follow the rules, yet they ARE living their life, by the rules, to the fullest.
4. Life is a stage, eh? EVERYONE has their part to play? Well, what about people like hermits, or miscarried children? those that don't impact upon life. You could say: hermits had a family first, or dead kids make parents strong. WOW: cause and effect. everything has an effect, and no one can just ditch their part. Fate, divine intervention, whatever. We ALL make an impact no matter how small.
5. You don't want to be who you are not? Who are you really? An anarchist who wants to see the dissolution of all government? We-he-hell: without government, we live in a world of freedom, sure. but who would stop those that rob you, beat you, KILL you? Society has its pro's. A disorganised society where everyone is their true primal selves would be a fantastic disaster.
6. As for judging people, we must. We each have morals, high or low, and if someone elses morals go against or with ours, we say "oooh, good" or "ooh, bad!" and we judge. The human condition my angsty friend.
7. You care because you have been brought up to do so. You are human, you learn. If you are told something, you take it as criticism, creative or no. You are told to learn from what you are told: "Hot - don't touch" works the same as "Ugly - get prettier, or stop ruining my view of the world"
8. As to having a perfect state of mind as a child, that's called naivety: you knew nothing then. (Like you said, "I didn't know any better"
Now you start to question society. Sorry it's discomforting, you'll just have to live with it.
9. You want knowledge, yet you want to break free of the bonds of society and its standards. Hmm... interesting combination. Yet, within your thirst for knowledge, you have morals, which society had interlaid within you, and these morals make you want to ignore certain aspects of the world. You can't have knowledge and be ignorant at the same time.
10. Your parents, they will die. Yet it is society and it's morals (now your morals) which says you should miss them. you should mourn them. I thought you wanted to break free of those bonds?
11. When your loved ones die, you don't delude yourself. They WERE there. You remember them, who they were, what they belived, how they influenced who you have become. You don't forget loved ones. That would be supressing anger and hurt. Memory is a dealing tool.
12. "I'm not as strong as I've led the world to believe" You once again care what the world thinks. You led the world to believe something of yourself and now bring it to our attention after being all high and mighty about not giving a stuff.
13. You say capricorns need to chill out? Why are you prescribing to the beliefs that capricorns all have a certain personality? Isn't that one of the bondages of society?
14. Why even write in english? isn't that what is expected of you? Isn't that one of society's big "Do This" rules?
Mundane, and overdone. The 60's was about breaking free of the bonds of society. You're a late-born Flower Child.