Have you ever wanted to kill your mom?

Yea, i've always wanted that. Up till now. She blamed me for everything bad that happened to her. I know its a bit retarded of her to do that, but hey, try telling that to her.

But i just cant bring myself to do it.

She's my mom, no matter how screwed up she is

OMG YESS!! she always blames stuff on me she NEVER lets my hang out wit friends im alway takin care of HER baby ! ( i understand shes my sis but still!) she hasnt gave my little sis a bath sinse she was 1 and from that point on I WAS FORCED TO DO IT she always hits me , makes fun of me, emmbarceses me ALL THE TIME I HATE HER!!! FOREVER IDK WT PEOPLE SAY BUT I DO! o and my dad went on a busniss trip for a year and a half and during that i was her SLAVE im not lieing!! thats y i hate her but i will NEVER kill her but i do hate her

usually when i get mad at my mom i get these overwhelming feelings to just beat the shit out of her til she is begging me to stop. but lately even when she doesnt do anything to piss me off particularly i still feel these feelings of hatred toward her and i just wish she would drop dead. i constantly think about sneaking down to her room at night, sitting on her stomach and putting my hands around her neck. with both of my thumbs on her esophogus and just pushing down as hard as i can until she is gasping for air. i want her to look up at me with tears running down her face and i will let go of my grip just enough for her to beg for her life and apologize for all the shit she has put me through. thats where my fantasy ends and i dont know if i am really capable of killing her but i also dont know how much longer i can hold these feelings back because they are slowly starting to take over every inch of my body.

sometimes she pushes me too much nd i feel like killing her but i dont cause i am gonna get mad at myself one day
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Yes i have thought of it and i really do want to kill her cuz she always hits me but not my brother. Another when somrthing happens i am always getting in trouble for what my brother does. Then always threatens me and says she is going to put my head through the wall then she says she was going to beat the poop out of and then call the police and said that i hit her. then she said she was going to press charges on the put me in jail with my dad.The last thing is she is going to tell my grandparents what i say and do but she does tell what she does so i am always getting in trouble. thats why i really want to kill my mom

Vonuchiha>>

The situation you are in is terrible. And it feels as though there is no way out of it. But I want to believe there is. No child, ever, ever deserves to be hit and threatened the way you are being, especially from people who are supposed to be your parents.

I am at a a loss of words as to what to say to you. I wish I believed in child services, but I don't because I don't know what would happen to you if you were to reach out to them and tell them about your situation. I don't know if you would just be passed along to another uncaring home.

What a shit world people have created.

It's horrible that the best solution that comes to mind is so far from how things should be. Get a job, save money, move out of there and look after yourself. But I realize that you live in the states so I'm guessing getting a job and saving money is going to be a very difficult and tedious process. Please people, help me out here, what options does Vonuchiha have?