I'm with you on that one, though I'm not sure we can blame the guy on the cross for the fucked up interpretation by those who came after. Gotta watch out for those christians... good intentions often hide the unconscious devil in us all.
I say look closely at the bias against self .. don't deny it, don't be afraid or ashamed of it .. examine it, question it .. feel the pain of it .. and yes, bleed for it. Perhaps that is all that is necessary to slaughter the false self and comfortably face our true reality.
But again, I love the writing. I'm pretty sure you could write about the toilet habits of 2-year-olds and make it seem poetic.