I hate some christians

the reason for this is because i am a atheist and I did come out with it at school and i was teased for it and when we moved i vowed never to tell again, i do not even talk about religion. i am resentful to my mother because i tolled her and now she is forcing me to go to church and my friends in my previous school always had some insult for me. some of the people at my old school did not even greet me because i am atheist, and then they call themselves Christian. i have not have a girlfriend for more then 6 years and now i do not even want to have one because i know somewhere down the line we are going to talk about religion, and at my current school when my friends start to talk about religion, i just talk as if i am a Christian in an attempt to drive the conversation away from religion!!!

i do not know what to do about it and i can't even talk about it to the people closest to me and now i am just distancing myself and i know its not good for my mind and personality. i am scared i might use drugs when pushed to far or kill myself or something self destructive.

I feel so sorry for gay people as i know how it feels to be exiled.