Security in lies

I am the darkest day
I am nothing but the aggressor
I am the nothing in between
I am the one who never feels
I am the one who is not himself
I am the one who is broken because of you
I am you
I am the child of your child
I am the shiver up your spine
I am the one laying in the road
I am the waiting
I am the hopeless
I am the one with arms outstreateched
I am the crushed butterly in your hand
I am the destroyed
I am the tormented
I am the forgotten
I am everything but hopeful
I am lost in this world
I am the struggling
I am the poor
I am the damned
I am the end
I am all and every and nothing inebetween
I am not listening anymore
I am injustice
I am the hated
I am the lobotomised
I am the misguided
I am the promised
I am your father and mother
I am the breath in your lungs
I am mother natures son
I am nothing but a vision
I am the broadcaster on your radio
I am the flouride in your water
I am your governor
I am the pin point of your agression
And I am the world, inside and out looking for a reason to stay



God will make the final Judgement
Prepare for the trials

Kiss this night goodbye
We have no reason no effort to stand still and watch this tragedy
Forget the past
Forget the present look to the future and wonder why
Give to me and I'll give to you
Give me somthing tht doesn't bend and break
We are weakness
We are torture
We are nothing but misled forgot and misplaced
Give us reason
Give us pain
Give us plot and give us treason
God forbid we've got this far
Failed plans have lost us support
Campaign for lies and campaign for pain
Torchbearers unite and give up hope
Tonight is my last one gun, one knife, one reason and one rope
Light my insides up for all to see
I've given up
Lose myself and set me FREE

The beating of the drums in my ears
There coming back from the edge of town
Smiles broadbent and leaning to despair
The haven we have made, is all but a dream for the dead
Give us speeches and morales and we'll burn your motto to the ground
We are the lost that were forgotten and never found
Coffee pots and cigarettes been there for a week now
I've yet to tidy my room in which i sat all summer day
This suburban street has lost its will to stay
And these suburban folks have lost the will to stand and say
They just want to be given a reason
For being locked out of this town
For being kicked while their down
Leaflets and flyers will float down the street in the wind
Like a butterfly without wings that has never seen the world
I'm sitting here by myself watching TV, its the same old shit
I've seen a hundred times before
Its kill this, kill that
Its all the same to me
The world has lost the will to host us anymore
We're going down that same old road again
Were we've lost reason to love and to adore
My family has been gone shopping for a long time
Maybe their not coming back
I'm locke din this house with open doors
The world is shaking
I don't wanna be out there
There's nothing left for me now
I've always wondered what we did and why is this allowed
We're the ones without a hope
We're the ones without a dream
And we're the ones who are the future of the world
What a sorry shape its been left in
Its all been left for the next of kin

You don't get it do you?
You've failed to give yourself a strength to fight
Your nothign but a puppet on a string
You've let yourself down its not my right to pity you
Give me a reason why your really worth a verse
I'll read your passages to the vultures
They'll watch you cut yourself from the rest of the world
Just drink the poison you've made
And lie in the bed of deception you were born for
I cannot forgive something I despise
Your nothing but a memory now
I wish I could forget you
Your always there in the back of my skull
I twist and turn and pull at the seams
I just want you out of my head
Loveless adversary that I'm unwilling to help
Pity and pain our under the same name
Minor lacerations have been dealt to me
Poor you I say for the thousandth time
Give up I'm not releasing emotion
Not wasting my breath on you
Not wasting my god damn time
Don't wanna be your torniquet anymore
You'll just face the ground and pity yourself again
It has to be about you for it to matter
Think about your own greed and face me then

Your not a daughter of the earth
Your not a daughter of god
Your a daughter of suffering and anguish
Your the daughter that fed me lies and gave me a reason to die
I've given up on you
Sought the liers from the whores

Sick of understanding
Sick of being this way
This jealousy of mine has filled each crevice in my mind
I just want something real for once
Not just another burn't torche to hold in the air
I can't stand here and act like its your fault
I know I'm the fool to blame
I know I'm the one with no real emotion but hate
Look past my eyes and you'll see my soul
Its buried in self loathing and fear
Your better off without me
You always wanted to see the world
I'll just hold you back as I've done for so long
Solitary movements in my finger tips
They twitch and tingle
I'm gonna smash everything to do with you
I can't stare at another photograph
I'm so forgiving
Your so filthy with my stained fingerprints on your skin
This hatred and jelousy is tearing me apart
In the back of my head theres the scent of the dead roses
I remember the day I gave you those
I'm so ugly and your better off when I'm not near
The beatings I give myself at night
They weaken me to my knees
This frailty is my mistake
I'm the darkest day of all of of ours
The summer blackened with my blood spilled on the sand
Its over now
Be grateful my hungry eyes are not watching you
I'm the bleeding
The needing
The weakness inside
Give me one reason I should stay
I don't think I'm gonna have reasons to keep it at bay
I know you think I'm worth it but honestly honey
I'm just another wasted black and white memory
Forget me and relish in your own failures
You pushed me so many times
Its all going down
Get out of my god damn head
I cannot afford another blessing
I can't afford another sin
Theres nothing in this body thats beating
Slap on the wrist
Stab in the chest
Insult and injury lead me with the jealousy
The jealousy
The jealousy
God its eating me alive

EEEEEEEEEMMMMMMOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

Lol Don't really care helps get my anger for myself out

Anyway Iains the one who cut himself in lesson the other day

Bigamists and liers in the midst of all of this
They always have the same effect
Love and hate on a way to bad omens
Open up and poor out your soul
Creatures and masichits are on in this world
Pain just makes you stronger
You just want it, I don't need it
Find me a reason to step down and stop pretesting
I can't stand it this cattle has been branded
Filthy excuse for a insect
Only one of us is in this for the win
Systems fail
All your plans have no prevail
Man just get a grip
Its just another fist against your lip
Give up, forget, digest
Manipulations gone to far
Liberation lost its fun
Down on the sidewalk losing faith but not losing face
Losen your eyes and take a look
This is the real world now
Kids of today don't give a damn
You do it for never
You do it forever
I am a mystery of many
It's too late for to leave
Sit down and take your place
This place isn't for me you say
Your the lier who tries and fails everyday
Give up your antics
Your the president of this state
Do something thats not declaring war
Seive yourself by the collar
Get up and move
Mother mary wouldn't approve
Look at me I'm a pawn of your war
Look at all of us we're maggots at your feet
Sir, Mr or master which is it?

This room as gone cold now that your not here
A cld shiver runs up my spine and gives me the same old fear
Are you out and about making new "friends" and lovers
I'll be stuck in side with my family and non blood brothers
Its the little things thats so appealing
I lay in bed mind wide awake staring at the ceiling
I walk the day without a smile or tear
My emotions have come and gone the end nearly here
I can sense the change of wind in my hair
It doesn't seem right it doesn't even seem fair
Oh I need to fall from you
You darken the day with each step away from me that you do
Keep me safe from knives and daggers
All your friends are theives cheaters and braggers
I don't like to make a big deal from these affairs
The passers by all give me those distasteful stares
I'll give it all for one last look
I'm like a worm on the end of rod and hook
And I don't know
Which line I'll walk or even the faces of the people in this row
Its such a quiet town at night
If you steal my breathe oh what a sight
Hold on tight now we're going down
I promise not to make a sound

I've given up on all of this now
Its the same after each and every row
You say its time to make things right
But without a single smile there is no light
Forget me they say
I don't even care I don't even wanna stay

The smoke rolls in from the shores
Its that time of year where we all fade away into eachother
Bridges crossed and new borders found
Stop me if you can I'm gonna hold on to everything I have
This time is a differet time for us both
Solace has come from what I thought would never be
Its strange that this turning of tides brings new smiles and glances
I feed off the energy of this town, it glows out into the sky.
I've found new begginings now and its gonna take us far
The ocean is ablaze with new life and flames rise high
Believe this now its not me VS everyone anymore
Its two against the world, falling fast awake just to be here
Give to me your last breathe I'll keep everything for keeps sake
These houses are all born for us with new memorys to be made each day
Do you want this now?
Trust in me
Why won't you run with me, to the edge of the world
Celebrate our memorys together

The sun is setting now
Our day is at an end
Today was the greatest day I've witnessed
But tomorow is going to be different
To wake in the morning and no that your not here
You'll be back to the earth and not beating out anymore
The world seems darker now that your not here
I knew that this would happen I just wanted to hold onto you
Before you died without a whisper or word

fallin' to pieces

Back and forth, I sway with the wind
Resolution slips away again
Right through my fingers, back into my heart
Where it's out of reach and it's in the dark
Sometimes I think I'm blind
Or I may be just paralyzed
Because the plot thickens every day
And the pieces of my puzzle keep crumblin' away
But I know, there's a picture beneath
Indecision clouds my vision
No one listens...
Because I'm somewhere in between
My love and my agony
You see, I'm somewhere in between
My life is falling to pieces
Somebody put me together
Layin' face down on the ground
My fingers in my ears to block the sound
My eyes shut tight to avoid the sight
Anticipating the end, losing the will to fight
Droplets of "yes" and "no"
In an ocean of "maybe"
From the bottom, it looks like a steep incline
From the top, another downhill slope of mine
But I know, the equilibrium's there
Indecision clouds my vision
No one listens
Because I'm somewhere in between
My love and my agony
You see, I'm somewhere in between
My life is falling to pieces
Somebody put me together

I take it thats from Faith No More SUPERBEAST? its a decent song but The Gentle Art Of Making Enemies is better

This thing called breathing is getting alot harder
Truth be told you are the cause of our downfall
Its like a jigsaw but our pieces don't seem to fit
In a different time or a different tense things might be easier
Living right now in this 21st Century prison is giving us greif
Lets all go down to the water
Our perfect world that we've created is our only safety
Things are getting crazy outside
Don't breath a word or the politicians will hear
Even from a mile away
They'll take your daughters from under your nose
You won't even be able to blink, your words won't save you
Honey maybe its just time to die
Hold my hand its time to die
Time to die
Yes its time to die
We had a good run but time has run its course
Its not understanding that gets us out of debt
This cabinet of lies will kill you if they have their chance
Knives in every ripped pocket, worse than muggers and thieves
We can't speak like this, its not the smartest decision
In a different time frame your smile didn't crack or burn
This is the last time I swear

On the edge of everything we stand giving into fear itself
Scared to open up my eyes
The light may even blind the eyeless
Our dreams didn't tell us of this
Claustrphobic air into my lungs
Swet down my forehead, collar burning at the edges
I'll put a gun to your head to save you from this all
If there's no bullet in the chamber then we're gonna get hell
But its probably better than here

Another Monday night and I'm sitting here alone again
When self medication has lost its fun and needles don't scratch
Its times like these we'ere grateful for the tide and its takers
Nobody seems to even care there all just passing by
Cracks are appearing int he side of my world
Its crashing down around me and I'm grateful
I don't wanna be this way anymore
I've sat here for hours on end wondering if anyones coming
I guess that everyone else has their own lives to live
Am I selfish or just mislead, I don't even know
But theres one thing that makes sense
And thats the knife against my throat
It would be so simple now
Boredom takes control of my mundane lifestyle
Everything is losing my fascination
I sit here in a locked room, picking apart memorys
Leading myself to deprevation
Desperation
Ascoiation with an alien nation
Nobody understands why I'm living this way
And they probably never will
But the saddest thing is I don't care
I'm too filled up to the brim with anger for all of you
Time is everything, I'm just waiting to run out
I'm trying not to slip back into that life
But temptation is growing and growing
I can't hold it back anymore
Too love and care is a lie
Like everything I've ever been told
The only truth is that it is all going to end
And we will watch as the world burns