No worries sir, I have by no means reached perfection, but I have found the truest path to happiness, and I KNOW it.
I would allow for the possibility that it is my own path, because that is always true to a degree, the point against this however, is that it is ultimately a universal path and a universal truth.
I have not detailed all my points in my reasoning, but have only addressed the base.
I did not say that when it comes to breaking conditioning and cycles that there will not be work involved. Indeed, as you say, if you do not become aware, vigilant, and active in adapting the proper responses, perspectives, attitudes, over the negatives, you will repress or find unhealthy addiction elsewhere.
There is such a thing as healthy addiction, you are addicted to food, air, and water, you cannot survive without it, but if you abuse any of them they will kill you.
My demons were conquered, but not dead or buried, the second I took the power I gave them over me back from them.
There is a difference between MY demons and those of others that have their power from their "hosts" and try to attack me.
Neither of which have any power over me that I do not give to them.
Everything you have said along with everything pupa has said makes it sound like you choose to be happy, and magically things will start happening. This is called repression.
The complication you continually reference is done so selectively on your part.
The term repression is used in the same manner.
Cannot a person repress happiness?
It is a choice, but not the choice you guys are trying to push. The choice is righteousness, at the base level, a complete and absolute dedication to truth.
And therein lies the complete and absolute rebuttal to both of your statements:
Do you really think you can choose to know the truth? Or must it be painstakingly discovered, explored, unveiled and ripped open?
Further to make this process even more difficult, these hard to find truths are often extremely painful for us, making us extremely biased to avoid them.
Do you think you can choose all of this, and magically truth will enter your head?
What is truth?
In a world of infinity, all things are true, paradoxically even.
And the key you are missing is your power over reality itself.
This is the significance of the double slit experiment, this is the coming zeitgeist of understanding of our time, it is the coming together of religion, philosophy, and science.
It is the truth of the law of attraction, the power of intention, the power of now, over the limitations of ego and the physical brain.
Yes, truth can "come" to you. Its called intuition, its called spiritual "awareness" and "enlightenment". Basically it is taking the infinite part of yourself and "listening", "realigning", "retuning", "harmonizing" with the energetic truth of the universe, of the creative source.
I can no longer deny the existance of truths I have always known but denied myself because of the limited minds and egos around me.
All things are possible, anything that can be imagined can be, I am all powerful in some sense I barely understand, I am designed to perfection and am full of creativity and love.
It is but my denial and my allowance for others denials of these truths that have clouded these obvious truths for me. That have caused me such pain, sufferring and addictions to such negativity.
You don't choose happiness.
Here is a crucial point.
You are right.
You are already happy, you are already a creature and creation of love.
Anything else is indeed the pain and misery you choose.
Love and joy are our natural states, you had to be trained and conditioned, habitually, to be otherwise.
Were you born unhappy? Or were you trained to be?
When exactly did these cycles of abuse start that are at the heart of this discussion? Were they the beginning? Or were they the change?
The goal is not happiness - no one knows what the fuck that is.
Another crucial point to understanding true happiness is to understand the difference between happiness and pleasure.
Anything you recieve from without yourself is basically pleasure, and if you seek happiness through these things you find your cycles of addiction, dissappointment, pain, and hate.
Inside you, you already have the all the inspired love and joy you could ever need, but do you look there for it, or outside in denial of it?
We are vibrationally energetic beings like all things, our bodies show "dis-ease" the moment we step out of "vibrational" harmony with that which sustains us in our natural state of health, inspiration, joy, and love.
We are at a critical cross roads of conciousness, we have denied our natural ability to "tune" into higher energies and knowledge not understood by an ego driven mind limited by physicality and oppressed by negativity and "lower vibrations", as well as those who would abuse these facts.
Because of these things we are on a path of self destruction.
They can't. Truth must be learnt, not chosen.
You can do all the learning in the world, but the truth can be denied, you must accept the truth, as it is ever present, and you must choose to accept this.
All you can do is observe your shackles and fight to free yourself so that you have the freedom to pursue happiness.
There are those who see the physical body as a shackle, if you were parapallegic, would you be "more" shackled?
At what point are you free?
I have no shackles other than those I place upon myself. And I, at this point, bet that Wyote, in all his big wheeled splendor, is more free than you.
I followed my pain and misery for a long time, but paradoxically, only half assed if you will, only when it benefitted me.
Because of this I perpetuated more of these things, but luckily, half assedly.
Because of this I am able to see, while still relatively young, the truth of some wisdoms I avoided tooth and nail to protect my "cash cow" of self pity.
I am beautiful loving creative perfection, and I can choose to be so, or I can choose to destroy myself.
This by no means implies that I cannot continue to learn and grow and create, but I will do so far more happily far more often then I ever have to this point.
Pain and sufferring are there to let you know you are not on the healthiest and harmonious path of your own unique blissful inspirational journey.
I am not compromised in my search for truth, I have not suddenly taken the blue pill, I have actually taken another red pill, one that has freed me from my own mental prison formed very cleverly and secretly through the influence of the obvious prison of negative cycles we are speaking of, which were only devised and later made visible once the far more physical oppression of past eras, or more currently unfortunate societies, ceased to exist where they have.
Decius, not long ago I began to speak to you about my newest attempt at information and truth seeking, in the realm of "enlightenment".
I have, as half assedly as usual, but will the truest and strongest of honest passions available, as usual, began certain practices of meditation, lucid dreaming, pineal gland activation, and other things of this nature.
I can hardly express in words some of the results that have begun to manifest.
I am seeing lights and energies with my eyes closed, I have begun to receive messages in my dreams, both about "fixing" myself and the world, I have taken control of my dreams in ways hard to describe, I'm not sure but I may have come extremely close to an out of body experience.
I have experienced a flooding of ecstatic blissful energy within my body that has made me literally cry out and gasp in the purest of loving joy I have ever known.
And I KNOW, that this is only the beginning.
And again, I will remind you that I have only just begun this journey, I have not reached any perfection in terms of the continual manifestation of these things.
I have work left to do to overcome my conditioning and bad habits, my insecurites, but I know it can only change by my own will, by my choice, a vigilant, personally responsible, self empowered choice, with active and positive follow up.
I love you.
I hope you get the opportunity to experience the things I have, and more.
But I know you must live and learn on your own terms, on your own path.
But I am here for you.
Even if I am wrong in all I speak, please know, I say it with the purest of intentions that I know.