Confess Something "Wrong" that you have done

Confess Something "Wrong" that you have done [+ favourites]

thats right ladys and gents, its sunday afternoon, and everybodys catholic.

now, i know there are sites were you just confess something about yourself, something you are embarresed about, but i have come to think of cc as a sort of community, so its a little mroe personal.
any time you want to confess something, hell, even if you dont, let me/us know. its good to know that there are other people out there that really are fucked up.

like, are you fucked up? and how? what have you done? what is so bad about you?
like maybe what someone else did to you even. yeah. i think that will be more effective. let us know what you are angry about. anything. it doesnt have to have any rhyme or reason, or jusification. just tell us. we will justify it for you.
i dont know, just thought it would be fun.
so here i go... man... this is a little tough. i havent really done anything that bad......
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i'll get back to you on that one.

"Wht cry for those that often cry? Instead, help them smile, and smile for those that smile."

i dont love anybody in my family.
and i feel that my life has been stolen by a seqeunce of unfurtunate events called my life yet i have almost no anger about this.

"Wht cry for those that often cry? Instead, help them smile, and smile for those that smile."

I think I love my family but I do not like them, although they are not bad people. I am just so ridiculously sick of them and everything else in life. I am called an asshole because I don't seem to care enough about the people I am closest to. But I don't know why I don't "care" enough, I just think I am sickened with everything this life has to offer so far.
So I guess my "wrong" thing would be that I don't care/love enough or whatever.

"Anything is Possible when you think illogically."

I have very little respect for my mother, and I just generally think she is a disgusting person. Sometimes when she speaks to me I literally get a shiver up my spine, and I am ashamed to be her daughter.

I think I might be a hermit with a superiority complex. When I talk to people at my school (which is seldom), I am taken aback by the fact that these people's interests are so trivial. I do not like the society I live in, nor the people, so I've given up and I hang out in my room all day with the shades drawn and surf the internet and read. Seriously.

I am pretty peeved at myself for always over-analyzing and being so un-motivated, because it has driven me to be in my room most of the time. But I think I like it that way, and a part of me is mad at myself for that, too.

I suck at life.

well, with my mediocre art abilty I've made several pictures and layouts of how to kill me dad and a few others I believe. Worst person in the world, I don't think I could hate him anymore than I already do.

I think I have a few more but I'll save those for later posts ;D

"I'm a human being, God Dammit!! My life has value!!!"

I've done several things in the past I regret, the one I regret most is probably alienating several people who I shouldn't have- a good friend from class, a would-be friend from Chorus, another friend from the previous year. These things are my deepest regret since each experice brought to my attention one more fatal flaw in myself, be it my over-analysis, my paranoia (which is gladly ebbing) my personality of stone. But these regrets I overshadow with my sucesses, though I cannot look any one of them in the face when I pass them in the halls, not because of lust or regret, it is more of fear, not of them, but of myself. That is my deepest regret,

""As I sit before the fire, I wonder how many before myself have been burned.'"

and do you know how to get over these fears?
by looking them in the face and talking to them. the fears.. and the people. dont hide frmo it like it isnt there. and dont put up a barrier or a defence when you do confront them. go in as a weak, pathetic individual.. like we all are. and when you come out of it with far more than what you went in to it with, you will feel better.
and dont wait because school will be ending soon, and you dont want to regret something that you didnt do in high-school.




i commited a completely selfish act, and i was aware of it at the time. even more, i didnt mind in the least bit.
i suppose that alone is not that bad, but combined with the fact that i was sexerely hurting a few people in the mean time ment that i was honestly ok with hurting people just to get what i wanted.
alas, it didnt work. and i did feel horrible for harming one person in the mix, but there is another person that i really dont feel bad about. what happend is this.

there was this chick, and i wanted her, but she was in love with her boyfreind that lived about 13,000 miles away. but i didnt care. he could have killed himself because i took her away from her and i honestly wouldnt have given a shit.

but like i said, it didnt work.



im trying to think of something particular that someone has done to me to make me feel wronged, but i cant think of anything. i mean, sure, people have been ass-holes. mainly my family, but i honestly.... well, i blame my father for a lot.. but i get over it. i mean, ive already delt with it and everything so i dont really feel wronged.

please dont forget the second part to this thread. that is the part i would honestly like to explore more.

nevermind. i'll start a new thread.
http://www.captaincynic.com/thread.php3/frmid=25-u-thrdid=61553

"Wht cry for those that often cry? Instead, help them smile, and smile for those that smile."