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It's funny, I have never tested above average. In fact, some of my standardized test scores in high school were fucking awful, but my grades have always been decent to above average. Test anxiety? ADHD, perhaps? I really do not know. But to tell you the truth, it kind of pisses me off. Now, I am not one of those idiots who bases his or her life on everyone else.... ...But, seeing people who made decisions far less wise than my own get accepted to colleges that wouldn't accept me due to lower standardized test scores WAS a blow to my self-esteem. In my opinion, people who are intelligent and people who are wise do not always fall into the same category. If I could somehow have achieved the scores my peers achieved in high school, placing myself above the better half of my class, what would that have changed? Would I have gotten into a wider range of schools? Would that slight change on some statistic chart have changed my life forever? I certainly hope not. I am content with my level of what I consider book smarts. I really hope that wisdom is never defined by some sort of test, because I feel that it would defeat it's own purpose.
"In the beginning, night was memory was water, and in the cool aquamarine depths dreams swam freely."
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