help me

I have one word for you. Salvia. Yeah, its a plant, a herb in fact. If you want to search your own mind, find some and fly, unlike any mortal has flown before.
*caution* Results may not actually give one the ability to fly.

"The parable to which you bow."

Thank you for those kind, wise words.

"I have nothing to be proud of today but hopefully tomorrow I will."

If that is the fly you're referring to, I would also try the diviner's sage.

There are very specific surroundings you must place yourself in though for said experience.

"I'm a human being, God Dammit!! My life has value!!!"

Nope thats not what i want, i just want to be free of shackles that bind my mind and my body. Then i can be free to fly and be who i could be.

"I have nothing to be proud of today but hopefully tomorrow I will."