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I agree with most people on this Forum, anti-depressants are a NO NO. I always say the I've been depressed ever since I was popped out of my mum. I know its a horrible thing to say but my childhood was absolutely terrible. I was the only one out of my twin bro and my older sister to ever be hit, I got blamed for everything that went wrong. Can you imagine a 5yr old being blamed for things she didnt do and being bashed for it. My mother did smack she used to bash me and it hurt so bad not the actuall pain just the emotional pain that my mother didnt love me and there was something wrong with me thats why she didnt love me. Im a pretty reserved person, quiet and shy most times and pretty insecure, but Ive improved heaps ever since Ive met my partner and his wonderful family who show me what real family love is. My family used always pick on my and I wasnt allowed to have my own opnion otherwise I'd get hit or I always had to do everything theyd say no matter what. I was so affraid of my mum when I was little that I was in the bathroom about to take a bath and I thought she was going to hit me so I jumped into the bath and hit my knee on a loose, jagged tile and split my knee open and it was gushing with blood everywhere, so I had to get stitches I have a scar on my knee which is pretty ugly. So thats why I feel depressed all my life because I felt that I was nothing and that I could never do right and I was a dumbass. But I say to my partner when we have children I think thats going to be my turning point when Im not going to be dpressed anymore and Ill treat my kids so well and love them like I was never loved. I would never take drugs for it but I think maybe if it gets to a point where its manic and if it will help and there is no other solution than yes take it but I do agree that its a state of mind and emotional issues which I think Talking about it to others even professional councillers etc. I think talking about it and getting help from loved ones is the essential key to a happier person.....
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