What I'll Never Be - Page 3

Can't stop smiling
Don't want to stop laughing
I really am trying
Trying to share what I'm feeling

A euphoric well within me
It's been discovered deep inside
Don't need people to be happy
Cheeky grins I will not hide

So go on, just smile too
Because nothing is alright
Let go of everything you knew
'Cause truth will never be in sight.

Join me in this dance
As the world is turnin' over
Leave everything to chance
Tomorrow we'll wake up sober.

Just smile.
Wrote this last night before I fell asleep.

TIME FOR A HAIKU ! ! ! !

confusing
i was just rhyming
smiles back

What does that haiku have to do with nature?

No need to apologize deary,
Too late to go back,
I know I was rather dreary,
It was joy that I lacked.

I love responding like this. It's quite fun. XD

you spelled deary wrong haha

im happy that your happy
finally i see it
you were just upset
i understand i mean it

the lights are out
the mood is wrong
feels like somethings up your butt
like your wearing a man thong

but a i've said
i know what its like
i get like that some times too
and i also get quite trite

alas our moods are well
(i dance my jig to keep brighten up the lights)
and the feeling is mutual
my time was as non-chalaunt as thine

i could find word that rhymed

Alrighty...a man thong.

Man, how am I supposed to respond to that?!?
And I fail to see how you justifed your haiku. Mwuahahaha! o_O

Crap! I don't know what I should put. -_- *sulks*

oh. yeah. i like haikus. thats all.

How many times must Life be given
Until questions need no longer be asked?
How many times must Tears be shed
Before healing becomes complete?
How many times can Regret be offered
Before sincerity fades?

Too many chances wasted
Too many tears to count
Not enough for me.

How many times must Death be given
Untill questions need no longer be asked?
How many drops of Blood must be shed
Before healing becomes complete?
How many times must Regret be punished
Before cloudiness fades?

Too many chances taken
Too many tears to count
Not enough for me.

At first-light I wake and sit on the deck
Dangling bare legs, I feel infinitely free
I ponder about life and all that is within
The circle of life that we never shall see

Events happen daily that we really miss
That some take for granted all the time
Yet they help us through all of our lives
Creating moments that emerge sublime

Taking for granted the life that we have
And those very instants that are forever
Makes me sad for so many of us do this
Yet fail to realize life is our gift, however

We only live once and so many care not
They live their lives by the edge of a cliff
Not caring what happens like it is a joke
Throwing away that truly astounding gift

Some realize soon yet some realize after
Many do not treating their lives with hate
Your life could be worse in so many ways
Just use that great gift before its too late

Mark another refuge off my list
As you try to get across this rift.
Trying to invade what I hold most dear
You say you understand, but you can't come near.
I'll play the dull, witless, passive child
If it will protect you from the untame, the wild.
You'd be another someone I cannot keep
Sadness and loneliness is all we'd reap.
I can't explain, you wouldn't understand
So walk away with your heart in your hand.

She's hopefull
I'm playfull
She gives up
I stand my ground
She's afraid
I'm casual
She's ok
I'm not

She's a deaf mute
I'm embelished
She doesn't know I know
She's watching me
I'm careing
You're hesitant
You're trivial
I'm relavent

You're made of gold
I'm magic
I'm a warrior
You're want to be
I'm thoughtfull
You're thinking
You're blank
I'm screeming

You can't look
I can't stop
You can't stop
You can't stop
You haven't stopped
It hasn't stopped

I'll try hard
I need you
I'll stick to tradition
I'll help you
You'll try hard
But you need me
Don't stick to tradition
Please help me
It's basic
Elementary
I'm basic
Soon you'll see
It's just closeness
Just closeness
We need closeness

So taste me
I'll taste you
You'll make me
I'll break you
Domestic
Insessit
Dissaster
I meant it
You feel me
You're stubborn
Dispell this
Or want it
Mistaken
Not taken
I'm not at
Capacity
So don't fret
There's time yet
I want this
I want this
I need this
You want this

Its all clear
It won't work
It will wotk
Maybe we can try it
I'm selfish
You'll take it
You're helping
Please know this
I feel you.....

Colors mold together
As the moon turns red.
The only thing discernable?
The globe of blood.
Stand silent as changes
Happen beyond control
The silence breaks.
The prosecutors find their voices.
'Why?' they cry.
But their illusion laughs.
Colors keep turning
Ever changing
Ever moving.
Sinister shapes
Contorting the signs
Hope
Far gone.
Beating themselves
Scratching themselves.
'Why?' they scream in anguish.
'What you condemned
Is what made you live.'

So what is the value of life?
On your deathbed you will find.

Back to the books that were my keeping
Buried in pages of wonders and teachings
But now they do nothing to staunch the bleeding
I find black shapes that hold no meaning

Isn't hiding considered a weakness?
This strength is a mask to hide the meekness.
I say I'll rip it off, but the wound is still torn
My words mean nothing for I am not sworn.

Yes, I'll admit to need help, but I'll push you away
Because nothing is worse than adding two to the fray.
You might not have time, but healing can't be rushed
Just look a little deeper, my heart's still crushed.

if a rip is to sharp
i'll peal it away
i'll take my time
if thats what you need
i'll swear on my life
to help you with your's
i swear that i'll fight
take a bullet or two
i know where it hurts
i dont give a damn
it's better to live
than never regret
hide all you want
i'm smart enough
to find you inside
then give you my love
if i'm coming to fast
i'll step off the gas
i won't hit the brake
it's better we crash
don't let your days go bye
glycering

The time of 'safety' has expired
Self-destruction is required
A bitter taste inside me grows
As it's time for me to show:
What you 'know' is a fake
And that choice was mine to make.
I fooled, deceived
Made you believe.
You showed me all that you weren't
Even exposed your guilt, your hurt
Yes, you were the closest 'friend'
But it's now coming to an end.
Only parts I chose to show
The whole of me you didn't know.
I'm not expecting your acceptance
Just one second for repentance.
Because I'm tired of pretending
Wasting time for healing, mending.
I'm willing to be hurt once more,
To notice parts of me that's sore
If it will give me life, atonement
Just to smile, if but for a moment.
The pain is sharper with every breath,
Every step further away from Death
Yet it tastes sweeter as I strip
Everything held in my strong grip
My fortress, my walls that held you back
I'm ripping down, even my tact.
I have no plans for the day
But this last thing I want to say:
'If I try to hide again,
Please pull me back and then begin
To tell me of happiness held in store
Between me and those who I adore.'