A CTL of 1 means that pupa ria is a contributing member of Captain Cynic.
I can think of two reasons: either the person is dealing with hallucinogenics either he is undergoing deep psychological stress...look up "fear of falling appart" , a concept invented by Donald Winnicott...he talks about it a lot, it being a manifestation of psychosis. You could also do some researches concerning body image distortion.
I once got that feeling...my dentist shooted the anesthetics in the wrong vein...terrifying.
"I'm the mirror that will make you invisible"