This being my first thread, please excuse it if I've placed it in the wrong forums section. I've been lurking around Captain Cynic for a while, and decided I'd come spend a few sleepless hours of the morning explaining myself, because, maybe, it'd make more sense if I could see it and not just think it.
I was born into a Christian family, and blindly accepted what information I was force-fed. School was telling me Dinosaurs, to Apes, to Humans, family and family friends were telling me God's hand to Humans. I had found only minor inconsistancies with the Bible, and ignored them as common human error. However, after recently as a few months ago watching most of the infamous youtube video "Zeitgeist", I began to question the ruptures in the smooth ground of blind faith. I decided I didn't believe in the Bible, Jesus, much less. I still do consider God to be a possibility, as I don't believe in the theory of evolution. It was only a short time ago I researched, and began to follow the path of Buddhism. It seemed to me that it was a virtuous and character developing philosophy (Not a religion, because I don't believe in Allah, or re-incarnation , among other aspects of Buddhism). After reading several threads on this very forum, and after a few epiphanies during dreams, or various highs, I began to question my belief in Buddhism, and Christianity. I say question my belief, because I am honestly not sure what to believe. The bible prophecised the rapture as several years of torment before/during the rise of the anti-Christ, and many aspects of it have shown true [For example, the extreme weather, war, rising amounts of evil etc., I won't get into specifics], whilst their are still many flaws in the passages. I don't believe now that Jesus is the only way to Heaven, and I don't entirely believe now that there is any such Heaven.
As of this Friday (The 15th of Aug.) I'll be doing Lysergic Acid Diethlymide [LSD] for the first time. I am doing it for the sole purpose of exploring my mentality. I have talked to several friends who recall religious apparitions and conversations with Jesus and God while on LSD. Some of them shrugged these off purely for hallucinations, others accepted them as visions, and accepted Christ, or other religions. I'm not really sure what I was hoping to achieve by writing or creating this thread, perhaps a better understanding of my beliefs, perhaps not. However, since I am drawing nearer and nearer to that final period, I will ask several questions I am hoping will prove beneficial to my Trip and to my own peace of mind.
What are your opinions on religions mentioned [or not mentioned] in this thread?
What might be some good questions and theories to explore [while on Acid or otherwise]?
Thoughts, Comments, Critique?
Again, I don't know what this thread was supposed to do for me, but knowing (Believing, at least) that some sort of Doomsday/apocalypse/etc. might be drawing near, I think it'd be best if I had myself figured out by the time I die. Referring to the thread, "Why are people afraid of Death?", i believe I would not be afraid if I knew what I expected.
ZeitGeist, 5 Seperate Parts to it: Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5