Suicide.

Suicide. [+ favourites]

This is surly a sad thing, but i dont know how many of you had thoughts about doing it. But I have a lot thoughts about it latly, i dont know why, i just feel lonley, and like nothing good will happen this year, like everythings that happoned has happoned. Suicide then seems to come to mind, i dont why i keep thinking about it a lot more then last year. yet even though the same issues happoned last year, I kinda just shrugged them/faced them. Has anyone else went through this? or have an explination for this?

I have an explanation... would you like to hear it?

"Hating everyone protects me from elitism."

Certinly I would.

If suicide is the epitome of unhappiness, of the opposite of living, then to determine the cause we must first determine what is the epitome of living.

To determine the epitome of living we must use statistical analysis to determine what is the most probable reason most of the people in the world "live", and of those people which ones are the "happiest" and what do most of the living people strive for.

If this is done, we gradually break everything down to "freedom". Everyone seeks freedom, and their happiness is directly proportional to their level of freedom. This includes social freedom, monetary freedom, and physical freedom etc.

Therefore, if you suffer from thoughts of suicide, you are lacking severely in freedom in one or more aspects of your life.

How is freedom taken away? By fear... we are less free the more we fear being free. When repercussions are set in place that punish us for seeking and getting freedom, we naturally feel caged. As this process lasts longer and longer, depression ensues, and thoughts of the "ultimate escape" begin to take form.

Generally, these repercussions are set by society, our family, and our friends. Rarely are such repercussions non-social in nature (in North America anyways).

So you have to then ask yourself... what is it that you fear and have feared for a such a long time that it's no longer a fear, but a conscious impossibility? And what creates or sets these limits?

"Hating everyone protects me from elitism."

oh, if its what I fear, or have that much off an issue with I can just tell you that right now. Im afraid of not being able to make anyfriends/being outcasted. That basicly being hated by all for no reason, or not being able to fix it.

Why are you afraid of that?

"Hating everyone protects me from elitism."

Im not sure my self, why im afraid of it. But You want friends and dont want to be lonley. Maybe the suspicion that you are outcasted.

Endlessfeed I know what you are talking about. I have recently been feeling like this but it is true that this "time" of my life is especially hard. I graduated from highschool not to long ago and Most of my friends are gone. My only happiness was my girlfriend and now she dumped me, so what am I left with? Nothing. I have my family, but they are uninteresting and usually are all busy with their own lives. As a result I have been feeling betrayed, scared, and alone. So what am I doing about it? I am deliberately making new friends, getting OUT of this damn house! Im might be joining a sports league, and I am for sure joining martial arts. Just get out and meet new people, don't be afraid and create your own destiny. Good Luck.

If you are feeling sorry for yourself or think you will feel sorry for yourself, make a choice and set a plan in motion to change it.

Don't just sit there and feel sorry for yourself, that doesn't help things now does it? You need to take action and figure out what path you are going to take in life, forget about yesterday, forget about last week....last year for that matter. You need to plan for your future. Everything in the past you need to learn from, the positive, the negative and take that knowledge to make the future better.

Life is all about choice. You have the choice to make your life great or pathetic. You need to decide which one you want. And sitting there "thinking about it" does fuck all to help you come to that conclusion.

As far as others wanting to be your friend or not, that is also your choice if you want them in your life, and if they dont want to try to be part of your life.....fuck'em. Let them go their path.

"My mind is tearing me apart, then it constructively puts me back together again."

Thanks for the adivce restless mind, that helps a lot. I have thought about what you said, and im confused on what path to take as well. Im sure ill come to it.