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An insecurity I just started to realize is that after failing my math test I relize that maybe, for someone who doesn't do so great in school, maybe my goal is a bit unrealistic or too advanced for someone like me when i know people a lot smarter than me in school are going for the same objective (except in quebec they ask for insane marks while the rest of Canada asks for less) but then again, if I quit my goal and do something thats less chalenging, Ill probebly regret it, and regreting something your gonna do pritty much for the rest of your life is f*cking depressing, but of course its hard to stay motivated and discipline, but life isn't easy, not even close. My point is that I guess I should stay more positive and stick to what I want to do instead of changing my mind all of a sudden because its too hard. I'm insecure about myself but things are a lot better than they were 3 years ago, so u never know how things might turn out, for the better or for the worse, I guess its up to me.
"Talk is cheap...acting... is....better... something like that."
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It always makes me feel better to hear that people have been through what I’m going through and that it all worked out fine. You’re exactly right, the settings I’m in right now don’t appeal to me in the least, so that’s likely most of the problem. It looks like I'll be sticking it out without having a steady group of friends at least until I start filling my time with co-op in September, which will hopefully open some doors for me. It’s a really strange "rolling stone" feeling when you’re just sort of waiting it out.
