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Yeah, lol, that's right awakened. I have to admit, though, although I'm afraid of public judgement and humiliation, sometimes I'll just have a bout of total disregard of judgement. Mmostly it happens in situations where I think public nonsense is neccessary. For example: Wal*Mart. Two times I've gotten what I call "Wal-Mart phobia" where I start to feel all panicky and thinking we're all like cattle, just consumers, so I run to the kids department as a refugee among the toys. One time I found a Darth Vader mask and a red light saber and decided "Hey, why not?" and walked around the entire Super Wal-Mart humming the Darth Vader theme song. It was great to see people turn around and smile. Surprisingly, little kids didn't care much. It was mostly the adults, young and old, who found it funny. They would either start making the deep breathing noises or say "Hey, Vader!" but none of it was in any way mockery of myself. They all thought it was great fun and had a joyful smile on their face. I would always bow in recognition or laugh maniacally towards the sky. It was great to break up the drudgery and boredom of the day, especially in a soul-sucking place like Wal-Mart. Last time I went I found the same Darth Vader mask but walked around playing a children's accordion I found in the toys section. People didn't think it was that funny because I didn't play the accordion that well, but I enjoyed it just the same. 
"If home is where the heart is, then I got evicted this week (Johnny Hobo and the Freight Trains)"
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