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Depending on your circumstances, you may just be thinking too much and not actually doing enough. Its another form of imbalance, your brain can only conceptualize so much, making use of the thoughts or having to think in action. Write how you feel, many arduous thinkers make for good writers, and looking at what you were thinking and feeling after getting it out can often show you what you are doing wrong or right, and what you may need to do. If you are severely traumatized, you probably need professional help, you have trapping thought patterns and cycles that are keeping you down. Sometimes you just need to share your feelings with others, see that you are not alone and that no matter what someone always has it worse. Watch a show about people living with deformities, imagine their hell and how they manage to be happy anyway. Change your surroundings and friends if need be, try out religion if its for you, concentrate on the good of people, be cheesy for a while. Find a problem with yourself or the world and work to fix it. Make goals, small and large. Do something for yourself then do something for someone else without looking for thanks or reward. Put a smile on someones face, remember that at your age you have time to find a path in life that suits you. Try to keep active though, seriously. If you don't have friends and family helping or pushing you in ways you know are good for you then you need to find a support group, people who will educate and or give constructive criticism. Most of that is stuff therapists will tell you anyway, trust me, so you can get an idea and perhaps a head start. And along the lines of Wyotes comments, don't fear stigmas of therapy, its just someone like a parent or friend point you in the directions that someone may have failed to teach you to do for yourself. Take multi-vitamins and try to better your diet, as well as add some sort of excersize, even if only taking a walk or hiking, walks are really good for people, get some sunlight. Basically try something other than what you are doing now that has lead to this. Oh, and since you are a pot smoker, you need to remember that you are altering your chemistry, and you are also ending the phase of distinct change in your life, puberty, this also affects your chemistry, so you may need to change up your habits. If you are smoking alone and more than on occasional weekends with people than you are dependant, period. Do you want it to control you? Though you may think pot makes you more creative, it doesn't, what it does do is makes you stop caring about how bad your skills are at being creative and allows you to flow, however, learning the skills you are already naturally talented at does far more for you level of creativity. Find your worst fear, especially social fears, and face them, break out of your comfort zone, try things out.
"The Greatest Enemy of Knowledge is Not Ignorance, It is the ILLUSION of Knowledge. Stephen Hawking"
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