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Your relationship isn't going to last.
I know I sound like a bitch, but if you really sit down and think about how much this guy is going to change as a result of attending college and what he'll be like in ten years - and where you're going, just think carefully.
Especially if you two are already having problems with communication and that you find solace in alcohol as a direct result of him not being there or not letting you visit him at certain times, I really think that you should just weigh out the pros and cons of this entire situation. If he's really supposed to make you happy - why are you supposedly the most better off when you're drunk?
Are you sure this is really a love or you are just scared of being alone? I've already had to sit my cousin through this - his girlfriend lives on the other side of the world and he sees her maybe twice a year, and the rest of the year he makes himself sick over physically missing her. The rest of the time, they fight like cats or really go find other people that would understand them because they can't give each other that sort of relationship.
Especially since he's off at college, and as always, the big thing around here is that guys hate the idea of being chained down to a single girl - and actually, most undergrads don't get into serious dating because of it. If they're that serious, well at least the ones I've met, they're already married and done with their partying scenes.
So just ask yourself Juliet,
Am I afraid of being alone,
and if I am,
when will I be able to come to grips with the idea that I am fearing the idea of being alone - when loneliness itself is not so detrimental?
This time in life sucks.
Especially when for 18 years you had someone holding your hand when shit hits the fan. Someone is not going to be there to hold you when you are in your moments of pain - you best realize that you alone are going to have to hold yourself, pick yourself, and also know that no one else in this world will make it through your entire life with you but yourself. So you might as well build a good relationship with yourself before anyone else, because it's an assured fact that the one person that's never going to leave you is yourself and your soul.
Anyway I'm done.
Just seeing the tension you two already have,
I would make a list of pros and cons and see if this relationship is actually making you more unhappy than it is helping.
"Milk, almonds and pistachios."
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