Thoughts By A Friend

Not Only Sad, But Confused And Angry As Well.

I stare at the shadows.
Waiting for an Angel.
And they slowly disappear
And light begins to take them over.

I am greeted by strangers.
I am be-friended.
And I am left alone.

A memory
Of a cold morning
And a relapse
Brings tears to my eyes.

I am greeted by strangers.
There are no more friends.
Only wandering eyes and vulnerability.

I stare at the shadows.
With the growing light
Comes a smile.
And tears fall from my eyes.

"Wht cry for those that often cry? Instead, help them smile, and smile for those that smile."

It's been a long day living with this
It's been a long time since I felt so sick
I took a long walk straight back home
I could've walked back to San Francisco
I used to long for time alone
I used to long for a place of my own
and I'm losing faith in everything
I'm lost, so lost, i'm lost at sea, you'll see

I used to long for broken bones
I used to long for a casket to call my own
I never had a problem facing fear
but I'm done, over and dumb my dear and

Oh mercy me
God bless catastrophe
There's no way in hell
We'll ever live to see through this so
Drive yourself insane tonight
It's not that far away and I just
filled up your tank earlier today
(Yeah!)

It's been a long day living with this
It's been a long time since I felt so sick
I took a long walk straight back home
I could've walked back to Chicago
I used to long for time alone
I used to long for a place of my own
and I've lost faith in everything
I'm lost, so lost, I'm lost without you

Oh mercy me
God bless catastrophe
There's no way in hell
We'll ever live to see through this so
Drive yourself insane tonight
It's not that far away and I just
filled up your tank earlier today
(Yeah!)

So drive yourself insane tonight
It's not that far away and I just
filled up your tank earlier today
(Yeah!)

Alkaline Trio- Mercy Me

"Wht cry for those that often cry? Instead, help them smile, and smile for those that smile."

Sacrifice

I've been sitting in this dream.
Flood my head don't let me sleep.
I've been hoping you're not real.
And everything you mean to me.

I have no faith left in me.
I've been fighting for so long.
You're the bruise inside of me...
Oh I love you can't you see.

I'm lying again.
This head never mends.
Now I've got a twitch and an itch, an excuse.
I'm sick once again.
This shit never ends.
I made up a twitch and an itch, an excuse.
See i am a saint.
And I am so brave.
To stare down my twitch and my itch, my excuse.
I'm tired again.
I'm dying again.
And you are my twitch and my itch, my excuse.

Fill my head with sorrow please.
Carry me through my disease.
And I've been hoping you're not real.
Because of everything you mean to me.

I have nothing left in me.
What's this fight for? I don't need it.
And everything you mean to me...
Would you listen to me, watch me die and smile for my cause?

I'm trying again.
If everything ends.
I'll find me a twitch and an itch, an excuse.
I'm happy again.
This shit never ends.
Maybe a twitch and an itch, an excuse.
I love you to death.
I love you to death.
I love you to death.
I love you to death.
I love you to death.
So I'll find a twitch and an itch, an excuse.

Are you worth this?
Are you worth this?
Are you worth this?

"Wht cry for those that often cry? Instead, help them smile, and smile for those that smile."

a place where nobody is scared..... just walk staryt, dont let any obstacles let you stray, be patient on the way. and welcome to jannah.

"I have nothing to be proud of today but hopefully tomorrow I will."

Fickle

Can you hear what I say?
Don't you believe me?
Why can't you appreciate
How everything is coming down?
I guess I'm just full of shit.
But this is so hard.
Why can't you feel what I say?
All as I'm crashing to the ground.
This is so complicated...
I just have no words.
I feels so hard to convey
Feel like I'm fighting for a crown
That has no meaning at all.
Its all redemption.
I've asked you so many times
But now you'd rather see me drown.
Why can't you feel what I say?
Don't you love me?
Why can't keep you in your heart
The blood of every time I drown.
Right now I feel like I'm right
I feel like everything is wrong.
Why can't you hear what I say?
And now my love is gonna drown.
Why can you feel what I say?
And now my love is gonna drown.
And now my love is gonna drown.

"Wht cry for those that often cry? Instead, help them smile, and smile for those that smile."

Walk With Me My Friends

I wanted to fight.
I wanted to prove that I was right.
I wanted to show them they were wrong.
I wanted to laugh.
I wanted to help them.
I wanted to fight...

They did not want to.

And now that I have won the fight
They are not here to see.
All I wanted was to show them...
But so much did they not want to fight, that they left.
And now...
What was the fight for?

"Wht cry for those that often cry? Instead, help them smile, and smile for those that smile."

Poetry For An Old Friend

For the child who thinks it matters
For the women who doesn't
For the lover who doesn't care
For all the pretty pieces
I will paint you all as one.

And with myself as my canvas
And with my past as my paint
And my brush a collection
Of scars and smiles
I will paint myself as one.

For the sanity of my lust
For the taste of my love
For the distinct reminder
For the closed eyed smile
I will paint this world as one.

And my beauty will be shown...

"Wht cry for those that often cry? Instead, help them smile, and smile for those that smile."

My Hair Is Getting Longer

The speeds of my
Progression
Are daunting
And intrusive.
Yet without
Concentration
There is only
Madness.
Passive and recluse
There is only
Time
No fight.
Immaculate
Or scarred.
Proud...
And content.

"Wht cry for those that often cry? Instead, help them smile, and smile for those that smile."

A.O.K

My hand will clench.
And I understand
That you
Are only medicine.
That makes me kinda happy.
MY illness is such a part of me
I admit
I am scared to let that go.
Guess I don't have to.
You are only medicine
And
With out you
I am the same.
I will always be the same...

"Wht cry for those that often cry? Instead, help them smile, and smile for those that smile."

My Parents Spent The Night

I am sick
To my stomach.
And washing today away.
I am hurt
In my head
I need asprin to go to sleep.
And as much as you think I'm sad here
I am really just tired
Stinky guy...

"Wht cry for those that often cry? Instead, help them smile, and smile for those that smile."

Love Songs With Pride

I have been waiting
To hear you
Admit that I'm wrong
I have been scratching at the surface
Of a drawn out pause
And I am excited
Ah I'm excited yeah

I have been taping
And sewing
And making up flaws
I have been short on short attempts
And lingered far too long
And I'm excited
Oh I'm excited yeah

And you constantly remind me
Or I constantly remind myself
But either way
I'm here to stay

I have been searching
And laughing
At all that I've caused
Its like a puzzle but the pieces are
Still miles apart
We're gettin nervous
Oh watch me smile yeah

And all faces
And friendlies
And loves that I've lost
Can not compare and not contrast
To what I've stumbled upon
And I'm an asshole
I've been an asshole yeah...

And you constantly remind me
Or I constantly remind myself
That I am far from not near sighted
And I'll apologize again
But either way
I hope you stay
Because I'm not much of a giant
And it hurts that I'm insane
And i cant help that I get violent
But it helps me soothe the pain
Cause dont you see
The ways i bleed

I have been staring
And trying
And driving the fog
Away to clear a path so brilliant
It would shine from the stars
Cause you deserve it
And I am humbled now

Tell me you love me now
I bet you love me now

"Wht cry for those that often cry? Instead, help them smile, and smile for those that smile."
[  Edited by awakendwraith at   ]

Good-bye For Now

You took a risk and risked it wrong.
Your mission incomplete.
You set out to save her,
But now your on your knees.

Your someone I've come to know and love
Sort of like a brother.
Your a one-of-a-kind person.
Someone like you, there is no other.

You'll probably be gone for a while now
For just how long I'm not sure.
No tears will be shed from this eye,
But from Magens, I'm sure they'll pour.

When you get back from where you gone
You'll read this, I hope.
But while your there i have just one request:
Please don't drop the soap.

"Gentlemen? Bitch, I radiate chivalry!"

I'm intrigued about the significance of the soap!

""Each child holds the world in an open hand to mould it into any shape they choose.""

awakendwraith you are a real poet. Have you had anything published?

""Each child holds the world in an open hand to mould it into any shape they choose.""

Sorry me again, I've just re-read some of your stuff, are these lyrics? Have you put any of them to music?

""Each child holds the world in an open hand to mould it into any shape they choose.""