Thoughts By A Friend

I really like October, but it feels unfinished... or maybe I just wish there was more.

"I am Akba-Atatdia"

The Little Drummer Girl

I am quite.
Its raining and the traffic is just heavy enough
To make my heart beat just fast enough
To remind me of you.

"Wht cry for those that often cry? Instead, help them smile, and smile for those that smile."

This Isn't Pride. This Is Science.

Is this a sample?
Why can't I taste you?
I'm feeling farther than ever
Because I choose to.

Why did she leave this?
To find a new threat?
If he is really so genius
Then why aren't we freinds?

I can't beleive it.
Have I been beaten?
It doesn't matter. I need to know
Is he so fit?

And does he match this?
Or is he just "bliss?"
Is ignorance seeming sightful?
Or am I just pist?

I can't beleive this...
I can't beleive this...

"Wht cry for those that often cry? Instead, help them smile, and smile for those that smile."

Sample

Smile for me brother.
From kill to kiss. From kill to kiss.
Smile for me brother.
As we have have elated before.

Oh you are adorable.
Prosack enjoyed and self-suducing deployed
To a war of reflection.
Who wins is the lesson.
Its so easy to see.
Its so easy to see.

Smile for me brother.
From kill to kiss. From kill to kiss.
Smile for me brother.
As you bleed on the floor.

And not to mention most of all
I am indeed happily rejected
From consecrated couplets.
Who leave their stink where they go.
Its so easy to breath.
Its so easy to breath.

Cry for me lover.
From felt to fist. From felt to fist.
And cry for me lover.
As I fall to the floor.

Smile for me brother.
For my love is lost in yours.
Smile for me brother.
As you're bleeding on the floor
For me reveng on you.

"Wht cry for those that often cry? Instead, help them smile, and smile for those that smile."

Wow.

I didn't notice, but the titel of that last one was sample, and I use the word "sample" in the one right before it. Thtas kinda cool.

What I usually do is write something and then name it after i read it over. After I read it the fisrt thing that comes to mind that would make a good title, I name it that. It just so happen to be that I named it sample. It wasnt the sample I was talking about in "This Isn't Pride, This Is Science." In that I was talking about a "sample" of the pain I once felt. But in the other, the one title "Sample" its about what it states in the end. Revenge. Revenge on some that you care about. No, not that you care about... Its best described as the old line, "Theres a fine line between love and hate." Its about that. The line where I speak of my lover is really just about me wanting my lover to be there when it happens. So that she could feel me more. It wasnt because my lover is the one I wanted revenge on. It wasnt my brotehr either. When I decided to use the word brother, I was thinking about the line in the movie Gladiator. Where, I forgert his name, the Cesear of Rome stabs, I forget his name, the General in the back right before they fight and he says, "Smile for me brother."

"Wht cry for those that often cry? Instead, help them smile, and smile for those that smile."

I've been apple picking:

Good Night... Or Morning.
Seven Hours In Bed
Happy Birthday
Stolen Sweetness 3- I Hate It When The Truth Gets Stuck In My Head
Myspace And Motion City At 3:30 A.M.


You know, you always seem so unrestricted when you write. I admire this qaulity and I'm envious.

"http://yes-virginia.deviantart.com/"

Thanks, but I have to apologize. Because Im not sure what you mean... Explain?

"Wht cry for those that often cry? Instead, help them smile, and smile for those that smile."

One Day 'Till Three Month

I often regret
All I have done.
Frequent I die.
A settling cause.

And all that I am
And everyone.
Before you thank me I feel
That I should apologize.

A perfect intent.
Ripped and I'm scarred.
As soon as I leave you.
This world will be gone.

And can't forget.
And I wont let go.
And all that I am.
And everyone.

And now with my pain
She kisses me soft.
Along with my hate
She feels all of my love.

There is no One.
But she is one of.
So now I will stay
And remember all that I've done

A plan and I see.
A plan and I see.

"Wht cry for those that often cry? Instead, help them smile, and smile for those that smile."

Check Up

Crossed heart
I stagger on.
Hazey and left wanting.

Through thick,
There is no thin
I am the whore of a nation.

With my crossed heart
There is no illegiance.
I am the whore of a nation.

Guided and secure
I am mistaken.
There is no whore.
There is no nation.

"Wht cry for those that often cry? Instead, help them smile, and smile for those that smile."

For some reason still a little blurred to me, these last two remind me of the songs that Billy Corgan would write (lead singer out of The Smashing Pumpkins). Especially "One Day 'Till Three Month " for some reason. I suppose to me, it's like it has the same kind of attitude/themes found throughout a lot of their songs.

I don't know though, I could just be making that connection because The Smashing Pumpkins is one of my favourite bands ...and I can't decide if I was just thinking about them beforehand and while I was reading these poems, or if it was the poems that made me think about the band....

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One Day 'Till Three Month is about my three month anaversy with my girlfreind. THe beggining talks about me ex and how sometimes I regret what happend with her, Its also about my freinds and how they treated me so porrly and.. well, its pretty much about some of the things that happend to me last year that I dont really like, and I say that I will keep those memorys wth me, even thought hey hurt and that my current girlfriend will experience them all with me, and even though she feels all of the bad in me, she also feels all of the good. The lines, "A plan and I see, A plan and I see", are about me being ok with what happend and how I'm starting to feel comfortable with the idea of being with her my entire life and beginning a new life.

"Wht cry for those that often cry? Instead, help them smile, and smile for those that smile."

Morgan Is So Younge

I stay teary eyed and I stay cold.
I stay pissed off at the world and I stay with out home.
My teeth are always hurtin' and Im always hungry
Been sayin' Im sick for three years but Im startin to think that its real.

Im tired and Im loose and I feel so abused.
I keep chokin' at the throat and I kep singing the blues.
I got lovesin my life, I got fucks on the side
And Im about to slam the door becuase Im fed up life.
God never asked me if I wanted to live.
He only threw me in a shit hole and then he told me to swim.
Now my visions gettin blurry and cryin' again.
This time I think I'll tell them all just how I felt.

After 18 years Im tired of life.
I think I'll lay down then I think that I'll try and die.
It just aint worth it so I try to let go.
I heard the picture break, it hit the floor, I turned off the phone.
I listend to the music and I started to fall.
I started to regret it between inch two and inch four.

Well life aint fiar so why the fuck should I be?
As Im talking to myself Im not making any sense.
Im talking to myself and I dont make any sense.
Im talking to myself and I am not making any sense.

"Wht cry for those that often cry? Instead, help them smile, and smile for those that smile."
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Fiance

Most of theses days of mine
Are only spent waiting.
I wait for the sunrise.
For every other Monday.
I wait for the past.
And I wait for the truth.

I can see everything.
I have crafted
The worlds greatest telescope.
And I intend on using it.

But watching is only watching.
And feeling feels so good.
So I wait for the feelings.
Because I have already seen everything.

Unfurtunately, In order to move,
You must see. And I am waiting for,
for those who I am waiting,
I am waiting for them to move.

So, in turn, I must wait for them to see.
So, the majority of my time
Is spent on waiting on the blind.
I guess that's why I still work in a restruant.

But if you, my love, ever think that I am waiting for you.
Know that I am not.
I am waiting with you.
And only you.

For you I will stop.
I will trully "wait."
Never think that I will ever lose patience.
Because I am not using any.
I am not 'By" you,
Or "Next" to you.
Because the truth is
I am apart of you.
And
Hopefully
Always will be.

So I will sit here
Miles away.
And wait with you.
I will wait for the sunrise to tell me
That it is time for me to come see you.
And feel you.
And be next to you.
Just like in the past.

Remeber
Always
I love you.

"Wht cry for those that often cry? Instead, help them smile, and smile for those that smile."

I Sleep No More

It's not fair.

I sit here rubbing my head and my eyes.
They start burning and so does me head.
The breathing becomes heavier
Until it turns into a chant I didn't realize
I was chanting.

It's not fair.
It's not fair.

Pheonix flames destroy
And bring new life.
Lights have been not only turned off
But shattered. And God says
That all is well.

It's not fair.
It's not fair.

It's not fair.
How could this happen.....
It's not fair.

"Wht cry for those that often cry? Instead, help them smile, and smile for those that smile."

World Of Warcraft

I can't help
But to dream when I'm awake.
And how miss you

I can't help
But to feel like I'm betrayed
How could you feel so into place?
Is there nothing left me?

Honesty and disappointment.
I guess I'll wait.
I guess I'll wait.
I guess I'll fall back to sleep.
Take it out on me.
I guess I'll wait...
Just sit and wait...

"Wht cry for those that often cry? Instead, help them smile, and smile for those that smile."