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Laying it on the line, i have ASD and have been described as what is commonly known as a high-functioning autistic. However, i have also been said to have the following; borderline personality complex, dissociative personality complex, insomnia and ADHD inattentive.
As for my IQ, when i was first tested in my younger years, it was around 125, which is highly unusual for someone so young and from what i have been told from recent results, it is around 190 - 210. Unfortunately, this limits my involvement in some activities and i am not allowed to enter a casino or participate in games shows, which offer cash prizes.
Also just to clear something up, nihilistic perspectives are a major factor in my condition, thus i see my self as no more superior to anyone else and whilst my methods of gaining insight may seem obscure, they are sound.
What people say, to me, are just words and when staring into a crowd, i see faces, not people. Thus, the comments i originally made cannot be owned, because it would be impossible for me to hold such ideas. Simply, i was putting a personal thought, perception or emotion, into an area where it would otherwise be devoid.
Also for those of you who are now curious, my limitations lay in the simplest of things. I struggle with rational cognitive thought processes. Simple math problems are always a pain, because no matter what, my mind keeps insisting there is more to it and i have a tendency to over complicate things. I will repeat actions over and over again, until i grow board and am able to move onto something else. Relationships are troublesome and i find it almost impossible to maintain social obligations. Time, without constant reminding, has no meaning and i will spend hours on the most mundane of tasks, whilst rushing through other things.
Lastly, the one people seem to find most amusing is my complete and utter lack of physical coordination. Physical problems, for example, are most frustrating. I see it, understand it and have constructed and method by which to solve it, yet when i reach out, my hands never communicate with my brain and i end up in all kinds of messes. Shoe laces were a nightmare, which took years to overcome. Don't laugh.
I seldom find enjoyment it things, yet always seem compelled to learn and will spend countless hours reading, writing and researching. Yet, sadly, once aware, i am always kept at a distance from the world i seem drawn to most. Even if i want conversation, people tend to avoid it. Why, is something i cannot understand. If you have some insight, please, feel free to make a suggestion.
If, by making this thread, you think i was trying to come off as mysterious or superior, please forgive me, as this was not my intention. Simply put, i was looking for true curiosity and interest into areas, which would seldom concern others. I think, from a research disciplinary point of view, this would be called a passive anthropological approach.
Of those whom replied, it is clear MugenNoKarayami is the most curious and at no point, made any direct statements. His insight was non-bias and always subjective. And even though my opening statement might have been seen as confronting, he took it with a grain of salt and felt no personal challenge.
Decius, started in the same way, but with each post became increasingly cynical. However, i was providing him with enough live-ammo to fell an African elephant. Clearly of a psychological/sociological academic stance, you over analyzed and fell into believing that all actions and individuals can be interpreted and understood. By far the largest limitation when it comes to such perspectives is trying to find a rational point in an irrational subject; human nature.
With that said, i would like to take this opportunity to say, hello and if you wouldn't mind, i would very much like to linger around this forum and play an active role, when ever the chance arises.
"The parable to which you bow."
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