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Dear eva
okay i am 18, im female, and i i feel trapped by my life. at times i wish i could move to the other side of london without telling anyone, wearing a damn wig, and becoming somebody else, becoming the dramatic, art loving, music writing, goth that i am inside. but i cant because my family is cultural and they just cannot accept it. i just feel trapped, like i pretend to be somebody im not. the other day i really considered throwing myself in front of a car just so that i could get some damn attention, and so that something new would happen. eva im old enough to run away, and im sure i could, but im studying, finishin off high skool before university. and as much as my family traps me, they mean good, they really do, i love them and i know that if i rebelled, then i would give my mother a heart attack. whatshould i do, i think im falling into depression, and i feel tormented by my thoughts, i think way too much, day dream too much, just go off into fantasies of romance that isnt going to happen, and it just makes me feel sick. so yeah what shall i do?
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