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Well I am 22 and have have been pretty much in the same boat as you since before your age. From my experience I can tell you, if it hasn't happend for you yet, it's most likely not going to. And it gets worse as you get older. You might have aquaintances here and there if you decide to go to college, or get a job. But I'm sorry to tell you, that you will never really have a best friend or friends that you can really connect with. If it was to happen, it would have did so when you were younger, and you would still be friends with them. That's what happens usually with normal people. If you want to try, I reccommend you look into some books that discuss basic NLP and how to build rapport with people. As far as connecting with someone emotionally, that is a HUGE risk to take. And if you fuck it up, which you probably will, because no one's perfect and shit happens, then it can be devastating. When I was 17 like you, I tried with someone and instantly connected with them. Or so I felt. And I completely fucked it up and created huge communication problems because of fears and insecurities that I had. The person eventually shifted their personality and told me to fuck off. Come to find out years later the person was just fucking with me the whole time and pretending to be my friend because they wanted to get away from me. From this experience, I basically learned how fucked up I am and have come to accept the fact that I should be alone because this is the way I have been raised. The only sad thing is I miss this person so much yet I am terrified of seeing or speaking to her because the whole interaction was not real. My advice to you is to learn to be content with being by yourself. You will save yourself a lot of pain that is irrepairable if you just accept that this is the way life is. I hope this helps in some way.
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