What I'll Never Be

Thanks. ^_^ You really surprised me.

""...Not every fight is worth fighting." Hold me to it."

Smile little girl, they’re looking.
Pick up your feet and start walking.
With a head held high, you’ll fool them.
You’ll be the happiest kid they’ve seen.

You’ll be fine when you get home.
Just hang on a few more minutes.

“Conscience, I’m tired of listening.
I’m ready to show who I am.
I don’t need them to know I’m happy.
Happiness isn’t me pleasing them.

But I’m afraid to let go…
To tear away the fisade…”

I’ve told you before and again.
Being who you are is nothing.
You’ll be left with empty arms,
The gloom will set in…

Then you’ll wish you had listened.
Wish that you had just listened.

""...Not every fight is worth fighting." Hold me to it."

she loves you, she loves you not
she wants you, she wants you not
you love her, it wont stop
we love her, help us stop

she'll forget you when she gets home
that spark only lasts for a minute

"why don't i listen, conscience?
you always tell me what i want
i need her to know im happy.
she makes me happy by falling in

but im afraid to let go...
to tear away the fisade..."

you don't care about her feelings
remember, your a bastard
your in it for yourself
the bad boy sets in...

then you'll be glad you didn't listen
wish i wouldn't make you listen

"Wht cry for those that often cry? Instead, help them smile, and smile for those that smile."

Solace in the Unseen

There's a place I can hide , that no one can find.
A place where the world is all left behind.
A place to take refuge, to rest and find peace,
A place where my mind is calmly at ease.

No noise, no people, no need to explain,
No problems, no worries, no words that cause pain.

This place is hidden, the path is not shown.
This place is my solace, this place is my home.

""...Not every fight is worth fighting." Hold me to it."

To think that you’d move beyond
The reach of fingertips…
To see again your freckles flare red
As you cheekily grinned
I would give up laughter to see you again
You understood me better than any friend
And now we’ve lost touch…
I feel like I’ve lost my better half.

""...Not every fight is worth fighting." Hold me to it."

Hawksong
I wish to you sunshine, my dear one
And treetops for you to soar past.
I wish to you innocence, my child
I pray you don't grow up too fast.
Never know pain, my dear one
Nor hunger nor sorrow nor fear
Never know war my child, my child,
Remember your hope for tomorrow.

From my favorite book, Hawksong.

""...Not every fight is worth fighting." Hold me to it."

"Your Heart Is An Empty Room"

Burn it down till the embers smoke on the ground
And start new when your heart is an empty room
With walls of the deepest blue

Home's face: how it ages when you're away
Spring blooms and you find the love that's true
But you don't know what now to do
Cause the chase is all you know
And she stopped running months ago

And all you see
Is where else you could be
When you're at home
Out on the street
Are so many possibilities
To not be alone

The flames and smoke climbed out of every window
And disappeared with everything that you held dear
And you shed not a single tear for the things that you didn't need
'Cause you knew you were finally free

'Cause all you see is where else you could be when you're at home
Out on the street are so many possibilities to not be alone

And all you see is where else you could be
When you're at home
There on the street are so many possibilities to not be alone

This has to be one of the greatest indie songs of all time. <3

""...Not every fight is worth fighting." Hold me to it."

perfect

"Wht cry for those that often cry? Instead, help them smile, and smile for those that smile."

Messenger.
Staring through
The window.
Dying
As two bleed.
Unable to move.
Incapable of helping.
Watching
As a good friend
Slowly grows bitter.
Sorrow
Then anger grows
As she hates it.
To be able to see
What
She cannot fix.
Messenger’s dying with her.

""...Not every fight is worth fighting." Hold me to it."

On my way to hell's forbiding gates
This metal bird is my captive cage
I'm ready to go down in flames
Reality is being left behind

So say your prayers
She's going down...

Seven agonizing days in the middle of no where. Shoot me now.

""...Not every fight is worth fighting." Hold me to it."

She's trapped in a mansion...
But it's not luxurious.
She's stuck by a fake fireplace...
But it's not safe.
She's confined in these walls of hate...
And this is when she finds who is loyal and who is true.

The only link she has to reality and comfort
Is an empty inbox...

Get me out of this place. One day out of six to go.

""...Not every fight is worth fighting." Hold me to it."

Tell me
Are these retorical questions?
Should I imply the answer?
Or simply pretend that I don't hear you?
Passivity always works
But I'm not that patient.

So what is it that I should do?
Deny all claims and accusations?
Or stand by my opinion?
Pretend like it never happened?
Wait for you to confess?
I don't know if I can wait.
So what do I do?
Tell me.

""...Not every fight is worth fighting." Hold me to it."

And it came to me then that every plan is a tiny prayer to father time
As I stared at my shoes in the ICU that reeked of piss and 409
And I rationed my breathes as I said to myself that I'd already taken too much today
As each descending peak of the LCD took you a little farther away from me

Amongst the vending machines and year-old magazines in a place where we only say goodbye
It stung like a violent wind that out memories depend on a faulty camera in our minds
But I knew that you were a truth I would rather lose than to have never lain beside at all
And I looked around at all the eyes on the ground as the TV entertained itself

'Cause there's no comfort in the waiting room
Just nervous pacers bracing for bad news
And then the nurse comes round and everyone will lift their heads
But I'm thinking of what Sarah said that "Love is watching someone die"

So who's going to watch you die?..

""...Not every fight is worth fighting." Hold me to it."

Playfuly batting at my hair
Appearing slyly like a wisp of air
Having the eyes of the keen and shrewd
Prone to kill, not thinking it rude
Stalking without a shadow cast
She chases me and is freakin' fast!
Wow, the cheesiest poem written yet. ^_^ But I'm too hyper to care.

It's a wild calico that makes my day. She comes along with me while I explore the rooms.

""...Not every fight is worth fighting." Hold me to it."

i found you
lying on your back
you were creeping in the dirt
it was really kinda sad

so long
you've been taken to a new place
and what's up
'cause some times your confusing
and don't stop
i'd like it if you used
geuss what
its what i'll never be

i saw your star and gave it a name
bright shining mask of empathy
i pulled you back down to me
cow boys, all talk, and fairy wings

smile big
have fun with all your thinking
and so what
if it's crap because we cant read
this is
the worst thing i'll ever make
so what
it's what i'll never be


i thought we needed a theme song

"Wht cry for those that often cry? Instead, help them smile, and smile for those that smile."