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Sigh'. Just because i agreed with your P.O.V. doesnt mean you should act like a messiah... You'll be back, but if you arent..its surely better to leave on a strong note. I think the chaos that 730 is talking about is needed for a better life, because once we learn our limits within truth...we can live a better life. If the mother fcker is hott..dont touch it. Save yourself a lot of trouble. The life he's talking about is this one, just different stages/levels of it. call me crazy. But i tried the 0 thought technique..without judgement. I just relaxed. I let everything go (on the ride to school this morning.) It was a shitty day, it was sticky and humid out, i felt like shit. And some faggot kid sat infront of me. This guy was someone i wouldnt piss on if he had been on fire. And i stopped for a minute and lost all judgement and conclusion for even the smallest things. Clothing, facial expressions, gestures, haircuts, body shape...and i felt everyone exactly as 730 described. Its is very possible to believe that all is pointless. Once i saw us all as the same...i realized the only thing that we choose to set us apart, are our ideas and conclusions we draw from life. It was scary, because there was no difference between me and this nigga ass fagmo bia infront of me. It was scary. Then i pictured the death of one of us. I remembered back to a time where i felt like i was dying. I blacked-out once after hitting my leg on a rail skateboarding, and it was some scary shit. Theres no dark tunnel with a light at the end. It was nothing. Non-existential...it was the worst thing ever. It was a blanket of black. You feel the emptiness..in your lungs. The feeling you get when your swimming up after a deep dive in the pool, except you have no will to breathe. Its not second nature. You no longer control you lungs.. Your heart doesnt beat. Its nothing. It was only scary because, i know what it is to "live". Im telling you. No matter what standards of life you set for yourself, or how tough you think you are..or what religion lets you sleep at night, This emptiness would have terrified anyone... it seriously was the scariest thing ever. and i wish that was just an opinion.
"In this world, we are never lacking. Only losing what we have in hope of gaining what we dont."
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