The Acceptance of Bullshit

Let me first say that I posted this before I read any of the answers so as not to answere with someone elses answere in mind.

I have time and time again droped ideals for survival and then re-establishd ideals again. I can't think of the first time this happend because it happens all the time. Strength, weakness, strength again. In the end I am just the reaction of causes in this world. My ideals are the ones the world trained me to have, and evertime I drop them for survival... it is the fight or flight response taking over. It can be cyclic. It could (in theory) be measured. This happens on small scale and larger scale scenarios. I am going through a larger scale version right now, towards survival. Seven years ago, I went through a larger scale movement towards ideals. As for my age? I guess it was the age when I first had to 'survive.' Whenever that was....

This is my first respons on this board. It would have been much more fun if I had one of those cool picutes next to my username.

I just read the other responses...

I am surprised at how much I can relate to some of your responses, that doesn't usually happen.

....Earplugs, buy em at wallgreens, not the wax ones if you don't like em slimy feeling.

Addressing the issue of blending with others, or embracing the 'self,'
I am not exactly sure what a 'self' is but I tend to wonder if one's self is actually created (from birth throughout life,) from the external environment. <-----not a new concept, but then genetics would be the only thing interfering with 'fitting in,' unless it is the perpetual changing environment that the self just has trouble keeping up with.
-world creates self from world, world changes, self adapts, but keeps residue of first understood world. Self now has old understanding and new understanding, but only new world, not old world. Not exactly what I meant to say, but I think I got the concept across.?.?.?.?.

How do you guys do it? Put them thoughts into words that is ... this is tough.

Of course none of this would be necessary if pain never existed.

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My early high school years is when acceptance meant more than values. Last two years of high school gave me a taste of reality. Through out much of high school I was an idealist, tasted raw reality around graduation time, wallowed in a pit of depression for months, then became a realist/pragmatist. Still struggling with appearances though.

Becoming a realist led to the weakening of my ability to feel. That was my reaction to the reality and pain of life. We all lose a part of ourselves in tough times

"How can we be just in a world without mercy and merciful in a world without justice?"

i have found that i do not need anyone to tell me that i am good enough, or smart enough, or if i wear the right sloths or not the other day someone hinted towards the fact that my shoes look really old and crapy. they do. but i found myself instantly enraged and began screaming at them anout how pathetic they are to judge anyone, because they themselve have more to be judge on than most people, for the anything, let alone the cloths they wear. he then attempted to 'keep it real' and start that man chest bump things that guys do. i turned around and walked away. keep in mind i am more than capable of making this guy eat dirt. i realized then that i do not try to be accepted by anyone. i only act like myself, and if someone see's something they like, i strike up a conversation.

acceptance is bullshit. accept yourself. accept those love handles. the fact that you are poor. not that intelligent. and then you will no longer want acceptance. i say want and not need, because you dont need it now.

"Wht cry for those that often cry? Instead, help them smile, and smile for those that smile."

never. actually it was quite the opposite. that i can remember i went from being something i wasnt and trying to fit in to being more legit.

"\WHEN YOU CANGE THE WAY YOU LOOK AT THINGS THE THINGS YOU LOOK AT CHANGE"

Yes, but somehow you went from being a child to being something you weren't and trying to fit in. When did that occur?

"Hating everyone protects me from elitism."

i think for me the idea of going with what i believe in and fitting in was never in conflict. i have always bin the one on the outside, never a loner, ive always had a large enough group of friends, but my group of friends were the ones who didnt really care about the "popular" crowd. we did what we wanted, and what suited us, also with the group always being somewhat fluid, with various people wandering in and out, there was never any pressure to join in with the its u didnt want to.

At some point though, about 3 or 4 years ago, i got less bothered about what people thought about me, i just relaxed around people. mostly thats a good thing, though i there are points when im on a totally different wavelength to everyone else, and just confuse people with my sense of humour. Also due to some circumstances of moving here, emotion was switched off at times, i can be a bit cold and cynical, though i tend to revert to humour in many situations (scarily like chandler from friends)

"So Schrodinger's Cat is not only neither dead nor alive, but might also be sexually aroused by elbows and peanut butter?"

damn...it must of bee a vague change,but i think maybe when i was around 9 or 10.

"\WHEN YOU CANGE THE WAY YOU LOOK AT THINGS THE THINGS YOU LOOK AT CHANGE"

the first time i ever played spin the bottle. i remember now.

i was 10 and i wasnt even playing, but everyone was making fun of me so i spun the bottle and... but yeah, i was 10.

"Wht cry for those that often cry? Instead, help them smile, and smile for those that smile."