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Suicide is a polemic topic, such as everything that involves death, I’ve read some of the posts and my position about suicide is this: Suicide is a decision that you can take, maybe it’s the easy way out for some people but as mongoloid said it is not so easy, lots of people had thought about it and had had the gun or the pills in their hands but when you have it there, that’s where you realize it is very hard, that you may consider another opportunity or that you may have thought about it but you’re not really going to do it; that’s why I think that people who actually commit it or try should not be frowned upon or criticized or been told selfish, ‘cause when you’re in a point like that, when you feel so f****** bad that you would rather kill yourself, you can do it, you deserve to rest, your not breathing your suffering the air (I don’t know if I making myself clear, I’m trying), you’re not being selfish because as there’s a point where your liberty ends and it is where the other’s liberty stars, there’s a point where being selfish ends and it is where you’re consuming yourself just because you don’t want to hurt someone else. I don’t think you should live a damn life just because you don’t want to hurt someone, if you feel to bad about them, either you’re afraid of doing it and you take it as an excuse or you should talk or write a letter where you thank them, you tell it is nobody’s fault, that you just couldn’t stand living (I’m assuming, in this case, that you’ve already looked for help, any kind of help and that it didn’t work out) I think that you have the right of committing suicide if you CAN do it, I mean if you’re really capable of doing it. I tried to suicide, with pills, and I'll tell you something funny, I have had worst moments after that and I don't know how but I keep going, sometimes I feel curious of how my life would be when I grow old, at least after graduating from the university, sometimes dreams help even wanting to go to a Manchester United match or make a living in England... This is a letter that I friend wrote me when she knew I had tried to suicide. It's good to let you know that she wanted to suicide when she wrote it but she just couldn't find the moment or the force on herself (she didn't dared to do it): Ana Hi, this is one of those letters that you think all your life y never end up to be like you wanted, and it is one of those letters because you're too good, too perfect to give you this kind of letter... I would like to give you an infinite notebook (she read a notebook where I wrote all that I didn't say to anybody, like I was sad and that I couldn't stand the world anymore) where your words don't fit just your tears, where no one judge you, not even you... where you see yourself from outside what you are inside... I wish you could see yourself as I see you... I wish that you understand that nothing and nobody is more worthy than you... that it isn't you, is the rest of the world who's wrong (I differ...)... I have never ever met someone so brave as you... I told you once that I would want to be as brave as you (she's refering to the attempt of suicide, I'm 'brave' because I dared to try, she didn't) and I would want to know how to shape my feelings on a paper like you do. I would also like to give you ALL the walls in the world so that you can paint them however you like it and to decorate them in the way that you preffer, obviouslu I can't give you all pero I can give you my heart so you decorate it how you like I would want to answer all the questions you have pero I don't know if I can and I don't know if you want to have the answers, NO, you're not having a bad time because of adolescence... it isn't about ages... it's about life, it's about you. I admire you very much, very very much, 'cause it doesn't matter how much times you fall you keep on smiling to what you call life and we'll never know if it is life or death, it just is... If you just believe that I love you, I know it is not enough, it is never enough, but it is something... Girl, thanks for everything, for you, for your life, yeah, thanks for saving it... Thanks for opening a piece of your heart, I don't know if it is big or small, I don't care, I just care you opened it, thatnks for trusting on me, thanks for letting me help you, thanks for letting me know someone like you... I don't care if you're crazy, maniac, depressive, explosive (I'm not explosive)... I don't care, you can be a cockroach or a star, I would still love Finally, I want you to know that I'm always going to be there (typical)... if you need to talk with me, just tell me, if you need a hug, ask me for one, if you need to cry, call me and we'll cry together. ILTM (I love too much) Dani Life is a dream, and dreams are dreams Dream that without dreams eveything cease to exist (Those are her quotes too) It ends there That letter helps me a lot to keep on going, SO DO WHATEVER YOU CAN AND IF YOU STILL WANT TO SUICIDE, DO IT
"In the sea of ilutions and frustations that life is, some swim and some drown"
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