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I'd say that's when it began, what I mentioned in the last few articles. It was so scrutinizing that on numerous occasions I had to talk myself down from being reasonably sure that I should call you. At the end of these conversations (with myself) it became apparent that I might be corrupting the logical reasoning behind calling you by the desperate pain I was feeling.
Thankfully, on the third day, it seems to have begun levitating. As well, I think the overall detox effect is lessening - and working. I have to think less about what the truth is when I see hoes, and it almost comes out subconsciously. I'm still very cautious however.
A series of traumatizing events to unclench subconscious faith in the untruths - and now I have the strength and determinination (although not apparent, but displayed in my actions) to remind myself of the truth over and over, when everything in me wants to believe otherwise. I fight my own desires as an addict... as I'm sure you are doing as well.
It is my mom's birthday today, and for the first time I feel strong in an entire lack of guilt. I choose not to be a hipocrite, and that seems to be far more potent than anything else. Of course I do question it, and remind myself of my correctness.
And today I learn about gallbladders and what exactly their purpose is - and why I am going to attempt to perform a cleansing of it to remove gallstones - which may be the solution to removing my unwanted lumps.
How?
Drink half a cup of tea seed oil + half a cup of grapefruit juice. I tried doing it with olive oil last night with horrendous results (I ended up puking in the shower, then massaging all the little bits of food through the drain so that they fit). So this time, I will keep the potion besides the bed, and as I am about to fall assleep, i will down it.
Onto the next adventurous days... |
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